Choices.

i had a choice : to obey or not to obey.
- i chose not to. i disobeyed.

i had a choice : to bow and humble myself or not to.
- i chose not to. i rose in pride.

i had a choice : to hang on and await salvation.
- i chose not to. i let go.

i had a choice : to follow you and not to follow you.
- i chose not to. i denied you.

i had a choice to praise you or not to.
- i chose not to. i shamed you.

i had a choice to fellowship or not to.
- i chose not to. i went my ways.

* though in the very end i know you'll triumph. though in the very end your children will still have the last laugh, even if they die, they'll die in joy & glory for your name. for each choice we make, causes an effect. this effect follows an eternity. the fact that brings them joy, because they chose to follow you.

for what we do in life, echoes an eternity.

i very well know the effect of my choices. what options do i have?
ever since i chose to 1) disobey , 2) rise in pride , all my options became self-centered.
i wouldn't give a thought on what you would have felt. logically, i wouldn't have made a choice, pleasing to you.

but then again. what could i ever do to take back my choices?
im smart, you know it too, you made me smart. but, this is the only mystery that i still couldn't uncover. i may eventually discover the key, i might not & might even die trying. one thing's for sure, i never regretted ever placing my trust in you.

i didn't stray away. i just made wrong choices. perhaps the very first step is to admit this mistake? well, i don't know. we'll find out in time to come.

KENRIC! 12:28a.m. 25th May 2007.
* my mouth speaks of your disgrace, but my heart sings of your glory.

LASTLY.
im into the last 18 days of my probation !! :D
i don't know thats good or not, but do i know what i want
: better days ahead.