FUCK YEAH !

easily pwns all sg female artistes...

its not over,
unless you let it take you.
its not over,
unless you let it break you.

cos i guess second best is all i will know.

& i'll be muggin on you hipsters all day long,
sayin' ahhh haa ahhh haa,

"keep your hands off my girl,
keep your hands off my girl".

I Stepped out of my wagon,
& i know you guys starts to hate.
The girl that came with me,
Looks like that i'm the Boy she dates.

*salut.
bonne chance à toi types.
je n'ai pas besoin de chance, im bon.

all i wanna do is *BANG BANG BANG BANG* and a *KA CHING* and take ya money.



" sticks and stones and weed and bones "

Girl i don't wanna go to bed, mad at you.

and i dont want you to go to bed, mad at me
No i don't wanna go to bed mad at you.

and i dont want you to go to bed mad at me.

im sick.

the excessive wanting.

the excessive needing.

the excessive amount of soul and energy given away,

but having none received and recognized.

in fear.

not of losing.

not of winning.

it was never about winning or losing,

but whether its right or wrong.

im tired.

not of you.

not of us.

but of the thoughts running in my brain,

thoughts that's brought both heaven and hell.

when will we learn to love right?

sometimes i just doubt myself if i should really give all,

in case i'll someday fall.

but anything short of all is short of what one deserves.

but since when have i ever received what i deserved?

( ps : remember "this i promise you" )

I love you baby, max max max.

It's been some time since we last spoke
This is gonna sound like a bad joke
But momma I fell in love again
It's safe to say I have a new girlfriend

And I know you heard the last song about the girls that didn't last long
But I promise this is on a whole new plane
I can tell by the way she says my name

She's got a smile that would make the most senile
Annoying old man bite his tongue
She's got eyes comparable to sunrise
And it doesn't stop there
She's got porcelain skin of course she's a ten
She's got the cutest laugh I ever heard
And we can be on the phone for three hours
Not sayin' one word
And I would still cherish every moment
And when I start to build my future she's the main component

Call it dumb call it luck call it love or whatever you call it but
Everywhere I go I keep her picture in my wallet like here :

(ok just kidding)

like this :

So what happened yesterday :
1. watched 17 Again ( high school musical guy show) w/girlf

2. edwin joined after

3. met bess and co.

4. girlf went home

5. watched Friday the 13th (much better than 17Again )

* DARREN IM FUCKING SORRY !!! *

I'm naked
I'm numb
I'm stupid
I'm staying
And if Cupid's got a gun, then he's shootin'

Lights black
Heads bang
You're my drug
We live it
You're drunk, you need it
Real love, I'll give it

So we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed

.

(click)

HAHA!

Cos its you and me against the world
so you promised me forever more.
It was something that I said
It was something that I did
Cause I knew
What made me Unbeautiful

For You.

What will it take to show you I'll be by your side

Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had

Girl everyday I hope to make you a part of my life

Cause you know me and I know you

Girl your love is where it's at

I'm gonna be the love that's gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Ain't nothing ever that bad that we won't be together
And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made

But we'll be okay if we just stay together

19th April 09; the begining.

all i ever wanted and needed was some form of recognition.
you've could've at least been proud of me.

i dont know whether its the pre-change symptoms, or are these the post change symptoms. whatever it is, something is missing.

prove them wrong.

sorry for placing all my expectations and all my ambitions on you, forgetting that this was a team effort. sorry for demoralizing you, sorry for making you lose confidence. let me help you regain it all over again. have faith.

it all started off hanging out
doing what lovers do when they're on their way to fallin in love
Everybody said leave you alone
boy she's no good for you
But they can't judge what they don't know

What were my dreams are now reality
no one could ever change the way i feel
Baby it's you and me against the world

baby, cos its you & me against the world.

if you had realized...
there has been major changes to my blog. this is due to some accident. however its about time i had it changed. i've actually been using my previous skin for 3 years or so. wow.

guess the new one looks neater. however it's still lacking some music. i'm trying to figure it out still so yea.... FIGURED AND COMPLETE.

Closer
And I just can't pull myself away
Under her spell I can't break...

And i just can't bring myself away
But I don't want to escape
I just can't stop, i just can't stop.

No Mac for 2 weeks from now !

After this pack 1 stick minus 1 (L)

no regrets !

going tamp1 tomorrow ! plus meeting love (finally).

and not going to club tomorrow, konfirm.

ask me = waste of effort.

I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love. - Mother Theresa.

KELARIC !

I love my baby Clara to the max !!!! ((:

3 MONTHS.
19TH APRIL.

I really do hope i can change you. even if it isn't for me, its good for you too.

there are still many things ive yet to know and understand bout you, hope that i'll understand and know you more day by day. the fact that we're living so far apart is very irritating ! its harder for us to meet up, and now that school's started for you that means less time and chances together. but then again, we'll try to make it thru wont we ? (:

Ps : now that school's started you must also learn to sleep early too yea baby !

Just 10 minutes after i typed that previous post, to the girl that i decided that "for you i've given up that life". the girl i wrote it for did not even give me a chance to explain myself for something which i dont know of which i did. and probably she's not ever gonna talk to me ever. Fuck My Life.

Just Hope You Know

What will it take to show you I'll be by your side.

And though we both made our mistakes
And some we never wish we made
But we'll be okay if we just stay together

I know he left you stranded
And you paid the price when you messed up your life oh
girl I know you're so afraid
But I can't right the wrongs he did
I know you saw the lipstick on my window
And wonder'n how many chick's been to my home
I've done my share of playing games
But for you I given up that life.

I want to be there. but i'm not staying long, till i get your parking coupon.

i've refurbished all my basic criteriums and i'm learning to be firm.
found new needs for change to play the game.

confession : at the age of 14, i stopped remembering girl's numbers.

i find it hard to grasp what we humans are clinging on to. is it money? is it feelings? is it power? cos in my mind, every thing's going to come to an end someday somehow somewhere. for what are we wasting our energy trying to satisfy our urges, fufilling our dreams if they're going to end someday?

if there was a no.2 event i'm looking forward to, that is war. something that we all humans will use to cling onto to fight for, our money, our feeelings, our power, our existence for one last time. and at the end, we all die. which puts an ultimate end to all these pointless clinging on-to. whats the point you fight so hard for something, yet will ultimately be taken away from you. we're all born without a purpose if you've realised and seen things from a different perspective, my current perspective. (if you're protesting/ unable to catch me, all the more you should kill yourself)

so much for the will to live, the will to survive. all for what? everything's gonna end someday. why love? why material? why power? pointless. i feeling fucking self-enlightened. call me stubborn, call me foolish, i currently find my new insight very logical.

fuck *eritocracy.
fuck *emocracy.
fuck *apatilism.
fuck *ommunism.
fuck *ictatorship.
fuck *onarchy.

there isn't a single perfect ideology, system for society ever ever created.
humans afterall are selfish, greedy and only cares for its own benefit.

i have in mind every single example to rebutt every single ideology ive listed.
how have society failed us? how have we failed ourselves, our kind. nothing can ever change this fact of who we humans are. we're on a collision course and its sooner or later before me, you, we crash.

if there was ever one thing im looking most forward to, that is apocalypse.
and seriously fuck all the r*******s . none of them is true for what ive experienced so far ever in my whole damn up-down life. everything is caused by our own actions, no divine power, no miracle ever exists, it is all results of actions and reactions.

even if you've experience what you call divine, well i dont regard it divine, i regard it equal to us all, it only has better gifts. and our inability for us to visitbly see it probably because it is of a higher dimension, afterall, earth is not even a fulls stop in the entire universal galaxy. not even a molecule, not even an atom we're probably just accidental occurences. what im talking here, does it even make a difference to anything? even if it does, what impact would it have? it would be so minimal that if the galaxy felt it, it would not even equate to ant bite on it. not even a twitching nerve.

WE'RE ALL JUST PASSERS-BY OF ENDLESS CHAINS AND CYCLES OF TIME.

time's not up yet, time's not even begun, army time.
goodbye society. goodbye partyboy. goodbye life.

cos' time's startin soon.

... .... still cant keep my hands my hands my hands off the cookie jar.

not looking for love nor looking for love at the right places.