And I’m grindin till I’m tired
They say “You ain’t grindin’ till you tired”
So I’m grindin’ with my eyes wide
Looking to find a way through the day,
A light For the night.

Dear Lord you’ve done took so many of my people,
but I’m just wonderin’ why,
You haven’t taken my life?
Like what the hell am I doing right?

Drugs

& why is it so good?

- gives the user inner-peace

- allows user to have self-acceptance

- increased physical energy

- increased feelings of intimacy with others

- increased sense of security

& why is it so bad?

- brain damage

- dehydration

- hallucination leading to death

- organ intoxicator

- it is illegal

- causes disappointment to everyone around who cares about you.

- drains your money

GOOD or BAD?

YOU DECIDE.

Memoria.

So rarely I get to see your face,
Growing, I looked to you in guidance.
We knew that time would kill us,
but you're still so close to me, to my heart.

Ron & Jul
Thank You

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...

Juliana.

* tout que je veux pour Noël est toi jul

. . . . . . . . . .

No longer can i hold onto this defeated change in heart,
i swear
It's time to sing "fare thee well" to life as we know it.
My voice it will be,
you know i will be,
yes it will be still
Something woke me up
in the midst of dream and fantasy.
Halfway there but He always fills my cup,
And He lifts me up oh how He lifts me up

I never took the time to stop and realize
that death takes many forms Even while alive

hot/cold
yes/no
in/out
up/down
wrong/right
black/white

KENRIC! 3:37 a.m. 7th December 2008.

*HOW?

Now we're bound to linger on
We drink the fatal drop
Then love until we bleed.

Then Fall Apart in Parts.

Luxuries.


Clothing is a luxury we have.
Housing is a luxuay we have.
Money is a luxury we have.
Family is a luxury we have.
Friends is a luxury we have.
Education is a luxury we have.
Entertainment is a luxury we have.

Time isn't. Time isn't. Time isn't.

Transition.

Here's something you guys out there might already know/might not know,

cos i've not really blogged about my current life recently.

1. i've withdrawn myself from ngee ann poly (avt) just about a month ago.

2. i'm currently working part-time to kill-time + earn extra bucks.

3. i'll be screwed if i dont get placement into a course in January 09's direct admission exercise.

4. cos i'll be turning 18 by march.

5. no placement = national service enlistment.

6. no diploma + stranded with an 0'level cert.

where can anyone fucking go anywhere with an o'level cert?

why did i withdraw? cos there were too many mathematic components which i couldn't really cope with ( in case you didn't know i suck at maths all along ).

and cos i'll be risking myself a dismissal from the institute if i had failed my repeat module ( in case you didn't know i failed a module ). i felt that i wouldn't have the heart to work for it, cos i see that the module is quite redundant and of low importance with respect of relavence to my course.

so basically, it all went down to my wrong choices of courses in this year's Joint Ad-fucking-missons exercise.

one fucking year wasted. one fucking year.

i felt that this was the best solution, afterall i did went thru much considerations....

weighing the consequences. this was the best bet i could take. the best bet. so now its either i land my butt in another course i like, or start getting called "recruit" and spend two fucking years of my life with the agony of having a good cert, but with nowhere to go (but tekong of course).

KENRIC! 12:40 p.m. 3rd December 2008.
* get rich, or die tryin'

Breathing.
(Lifehouse)

I'm finding my way back to sanity again
Though I don't really know what
I'm going to do when I get there
Take a breath and hold on tight
Spin around one more time
And gracefully fall back to the arms of Grace

I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be

I'm looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God which one's you?
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of me
One more time

I don't want a thing from you
Bet you're tired of me waiting
For the scraps to fall
Off your table to the ground
I just want to be here now

'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside heaven's door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be