Sorry, Blame it on me

i know i've been a bastard to everyone around me lately and i decided that i shall stop being the jackass that i am. at least for now ok? (: so, this song is for you peeps out there that has been "jiao-ed" , "shoot" , "neglected" , " disrespected" or simply hurt by me. im sorry.

word are still words. give me time to change. i can do it.
people not allowed to tag about this post : { your name here }
(ok just joking)

AKON - Sorry, Blame it on me.

(play the video below the lyrics)

As life goes on, I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility.
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me.
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that I've done,
things that haven't occurred yet,
and things that they don't want to take responsibility for.

I'm sorry for the times that I left you home
I was on the road and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to go
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing we
Could go back to when it was just you and me
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I disrespect

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my sons
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my girl

Chrous:
I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
(I'd be the reason for your pain) or (I'll be the reason for your pain)
And you can put the blame on me

you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me

said, you can put the blame on me
said, you can put the blame on me
said, you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that he put you through
And all the times you didn't know what to do
I'm sorry that you had to go and sell those bags
Just trying to stay busy until you heard from Dad

When you would rather be home with all your kids
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though pops treated us like kings
He got a second wife and you didn't agree

He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief
[Sorry, Blame It On Me lyrics on

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this way
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away

Chrous:
I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you might not show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
(I'd be the reason for your pain) or (I'll be the reason for your pain)
And you can put the blame on me

you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me

said, you can put the blame on me
said, you can put the blame on me
said, you can put the blame on me
you can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong, trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to speak
But I was on tour with Gwen Stefani

I'm sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the embarrassment that she felt
She's just a little young girl tryin to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for Club Zen getting shut down
I hope they manage better next time around
How was I to know she was underage
In a 21 and older club they say

Why doesn't anybody want to take blame
Verizon backed out, disgracing my name
I'm just a singer trying to entertain
Because I love my fans, I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
Even though the blame's on you
I'll take that blame from you

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
you can put that blame on me
you can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me (more)





KENRIC! 10:14P.M. 28TH August 2007.

* you can put the blame on me.

You Are a Haunted House

You are a deeply complicated and sometimes deeply disturbed person. You can't help but be attracted to the dark side of life - even when it's pretty gruesome. In relationships, you are honest and real. So real that it's definitely a little scary. You don't fake it or play along just to get along. And people either respect this... or deeply resent it Your life is thoughtful, deep, and even philosophical at times. You see the world as it is. You don't sugar coat anything. Facing and fighting your fears is important to you. You believe that too much of life is whitewashed. You're not too morbid... you just believe that you can't enjoy life without exorcising a few demons first! At your best, you are brave, intense, and fearless. Not only do you face the abyss head on - you challenge your friends to do the same. At your worst, you are depressed and morose. If you're not careful, your thoughts take over your mind... and they aren't pretty!

What Carnival Ride Are You?

Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
Far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Bridge)

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

(Chorus)
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing




* you're my sweet surrender.

I had fun yesterday :)
woke @ 7am then met daly, jo and yanling for work.
ended work at around 330pm and headed town, yanling went home.
was kinda boring at first, we had lunch, but jo was suffering due to the piercing.
poor thing :( hope it gets better soon !

then headed to suntec, walked and slacked around waiting for pam.
sat down for some icecream and took some stupid photos.
headed to marina square steps to watch fireworks.
it was worth it, simply swesome.
cause finally i had a proper view of the fireworks this time (:

headed home. tired.
i guess the fun wasnt the walking around and stuff. was really tired yesterday cos i only had 3 hours sleep the previous night. but i guess it was the fireworks and the company? should be, idk.

KENRIC! 9:17p.m. 19th August 2007 .

Rush on a bike,
Cuts on the ankle,
Drops of sweat down the neck,
Few taps on the gate,
The extra mile to take.

Well worth the company and pre-dinner snack :)

KENRIC! 10:16p.m. 15th August 2007 .

Goo Goo Dolls - Before It's Too Late




I wandered through fiction
To look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
And I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

Hold on, before it's too late
We'll run till we leave this behind
Don't fall, just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

And the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you don't live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real till it's gone

Hold on, before it's too late
We'll run till we leave this behind
Don't fall, just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

So live like you mean it
And love till you feel it
It's all that we need in our lives
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real till it's gone

Hold on, before it's too late
We'll run till we leave this behind
Don't fall, just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Hold on, before it's too late
We'll run till we leave this behind
Don't fall, just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that we need in our lives
It's all that I need in my life

C6 , that's what i got for "O" Level Mother Tongue ( Chinese ) .

KENRIC! 2:30p.m. 14th August 2007 .

Claps for Booze & Fags !
.....and Music.

Leon, Daly, Jinyi, Jo, Yt came over Last night for a mini gathering.
we had some drinks and games, then over to Leon's relay of the usual lame/racist jokes.
its fun hanging out with you Leon a.k.a. Matante ! blasted music over the stereo.

Jo and Yt left at around 630am? and the boys continued to sleeping at my place.
Leon woke first and we ate biscuits with campbell's soup.
did come housework till 1pm them headed out with Leon, jinyi slept till 1:30pm, we all left the house together.

went town, met m&m , Lengleng & saw Shereen, daly, Bedah, Jo and pam.
left at around 11pm. took a bus from yewtee at 2345 and missed my stop, woke at cck interchange. its 0030. no more last bus. walked home an empty stomach, tired eyes, hands and legs.

but. somebody was so sweet to have msged me, it stopped me from fainting and gave me the strength to drag my feet home :) its you yea.

intending to stay home for my Sunday i guess. so tired. and ive got so many homework to do. ARGH.

KENRIC! 3:02a.m. 12 August 2007
* you're way too beautiful girl.

In Chronological Order....

1. KrunkII sucked
2. slept at 12noon and woke at 6pm.
3. went town to meet mates.
4. had a glimpse of the fireworks from Plaza Singapura.
5. watched The Simpsons Movie, total humour. It Rocks.
6. supper w/ Jason at YouthPark kopitiam.
7. missed the last 190 bus.
8. managed to catch the last train that stops at Kranji.
9. intended to cab, but Feng's dad was kind, he drove over @ 1am to fetch us home.
10. was left speechless and landed in a dilemma.

KENRIC! 2:35a.m. 10th August 2007.
* oh, its what you do to me.

How do i let words flow out from my lips.
how do i take just one more step.
how do i reach out again.
how can i overcome this stom.

Tell me won't you?

A night's passed, and im left wondering Why.

KENRIC! 11:27a.m. 9th August 2007
* i dont know either.

The Heights - How do you talk to an Angel
I hear a voice in my mind
I know her face by heart
Heaven and earth are moving in my soul
I don't know where to start
Tell me, tell me, the words to define
The way I feel about someone so fine

How do you talk to an angel
How do you hold her close to where you are
How do you talk to an angel
It's like trying to catch a falling star

At night I dream that she is there
And I can feel her in the air
Tell me, tell me, the words to define
The way I feel about someone so fine

How do you talk to an angel
How do you hold her close to where you are
How do you talk to an angel
It's like trying to catch a falling star
Yeah, yeah

Conscience.
kids, why don't you knock out of it?
or do you need some definition check?

Seperation - noun
[sep-uh-rey-shuhn]
1. an act or instance of separating or the state of being separated.
2. a place, line, or point of parting.
3. something that separates or divides.
4. non further interference with the other's problems.

get it?
when i said seperation means i would not even give a f*uck about what else or what not happenings around you people. and since seperation was agreed by two parties, it would be kindly appreciated if my business will not be affected / interfered with / interrupted.

don't jump into conclusions when something happens. like i said i don't give a f*uck, i meant non-interferrence on my part too. so don't falsely accuse this somebody who didn't do a crap. it does not mean that having an unagreement i would certainly be the culprit of whatsoever you find misfitting / not-in-place / don't-seem-right. get your facts checked.

and, dont you find it illogical if somebody that is not involved becomes a victim of our disagreement? come-on, cut me some slack. everyone has their own freedom of choice. and what for or what-not would you want to try poaching friends? or simply garner majority support? if they are my true friends, you think they would desert me? simple as that, this is why i dont even bother asking for people to take sides. i wont even care to distort facts, what i did i will admit, but what happens if what i did becomes a distorted version that comes out the mouths of others? well, i've not nothing to say then :) the righteous and smart can discern fact from fiction, vice versa. the fools believe whatever told.

Friend - (frěnd)
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
3. A person who respects you, your decisions.
4. A person that accepts you for who you are.
Friendship - (frend-ship)
1. the state of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person's friendship.
2. a friendly relation or intimacy.
3. The quality or condition of being friends.

KENRIC! 12:57p.m. 8th August 2007.

* love me or hate me its still an obsession.

This is a post for a certain nobody,
that used to be a somebody.
(just another has-been)

well it seems that we parted because we couldn't talk.
but now it seems that we parted because you played me out.
looking back, its all worth it.

Thank God the parasite was annhilated,
the trash was taken out before it started to rot.
there were no goodbye kisses,
and indeed you're not missed.
cos farewell was just the start of your fall, your loss.

now the revelations,
revelations, revelations and revelations
seems so clear.
& each of your every past act is well accounted for.

my pain,
seemed like my loss,
now it feels like a gain.

look who's crying now?

look who's all broke,

cheated, played out and disappointed.

didn't your mommy warn you?

her words fell on deaf ears,

and you got your pretty little fingers burnt.

i've made my big money,
living my 7*star lifestyle.
you're still barely surving on pizza&pocket money,
in your little 2*star life.
got my honeys and sweeties,
and still you're stuck with your two-bit try-hard peeps.

guess thats reality,
when you thought you broke me,
you reinforced me.

in life we make decisions,
some good,
some not-so-good,
but some are just terrible.
guess what, you made terrible ones
and you're paying your dues now.

i guess this is life,
suck it up,
and face it.....
like the b!tch you already were.

KENRIC! 8:49p.m. 5th August 2007.
* holla for Kenric's single-fingered salut.
_l_ ^^ _l_