SHHHHH, OBSERVE.

Remember ?

SPEECHLESS. DUMBFOUNDED. HYSTERICAL.
Up till now, I've finally realized what I am up against.

* kenric, ur such a joke.

2nd Chance.
Don't hang up, Can we talk?
So confused, It's like im lost.
What went wrong? what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me, I'll change for you.

When did we Fall apart?
Or did you lie From the start?
When you said It's only you
I was blind Such a fool
Thinking we Were unbreakable


I've been told Whats done is done
To let it go And carry on
And deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time I'm stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

All I ever needed was one more chance to prove myself.
Was it all too Late?

This year,
I lost my Best-friend,
I lost the greatest Love I've found.

Life. Goes. On.

In my eyes, you are the most beautiful.
& nothing else can ever replace this feeling.

Hush.
This is as quiet as it gets
Hush down now
Go to sleep
We were once perfect me and you
Will never leave this room

Hush
You color my eyes red
Your loves not live it's dead
This letters written itself inside out again
When rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends
Hush this is where it ends

This is the calming before the storm
This absolution is always incomplete
It's always bittersweet
.
"i'll leave when the wind blows"
"you and me against the world"
"together"
"insomnia"
'"unbeautiful"
.
and so on.....
*cos you gave me the best mixtape i have.

The Best Days Of My Life, Thus Far.
















*Photographs are now my only source of comfort and recollection of this beautiful memory.

To : A Special Somebody

19th April 2009 was the start of an experience I'll never ever forget. 30th August 2009 is the day that this experience ended. I would say it all started out Beautifully and it ended with mixed feelings and emotions.

Thank you for all the good memories and life lessons you taught me, they are the most valuable possessions i own now. i will keep them safe in my heart till the day that i die. I am not afraid of admitting to my mistakes. I took you for granted. My attitude towards you changed and i didn't respect your freedom and privacy. Silly me even went to the extent to becoming a "stalker". I went up to your house and secretly looked at you from your window. I know you people out there will laugh at me, but I'm not afraid of letting the whole world know. For it was what i believed would help the situation, but it only made things worse. I only have myself to blame for being unable to control myself but i couldn't take it that things were left hanging. Maybe things would have turned out differently if i had the patience, but maybe not, for the chances you gave me were beyond what you could give.

I don't expect to be able to turn back the time for i have always lived on the principle to never regret. Yes, I do feel it, but would this self pity and dwelling help anything. Perhaps its time to move on.

I've tarnished my entire impression in your eyes and I am nothing less than a "fucking asshole", "sicko pervert". It is all too late for me to do anything anymore. I wish that I've made a positive impact in your life. But, I know that in reality, the picture I've painted wasn't all that perfect. With you I've learnt that Giving up part of myself, doesn't make me less of a person, in fact it made me more "complete" as a person. Maybe someday we'll know what exactly went wrong, but for now i only have my own selfish actions to blame.

I know in the game of Love, nobody is right nor wrong. Maybe the way i expressed my love for you wasn't correct and was somehow lost in translation from my feelings to actions. All I can do now is stand up from the fall and look forward to other things life has to offer.

From here, i wish you all the best. I wish you happiness. And most importantly I hope that you will make right choices from now on. There is so much on my mind now that i simply cannot put them all into words. But i hope that deep down inside, you already understand this realization I've come to. Friends?

Thanks For The Memories.

who would ever know how it feels like to be in my shoes?

all it ever takes was to pop + "trivum-dying in your arms" to make things right. or is it?

Someday.

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables

I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late

Nothin's wrong just as long as
you know that someday I will...

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
You're the only one who knows that

Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

* someday somehow, i'm going to make it. mark these words.

( ps : i miss you, my pumpkin poopykins ):

& all i ever ask for was for you to be Proud of Me.

MY EGG DID NOT BREAK AFTER FALLING FROM THE 5TH FLOOR .
OMFG OMFG OMFG !!!

OMFG 6 HOURS !!!!!

WHY?

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know I love you.

Ps : Please don't give up on this.

INCREASING WORKLOADS & STRESS.
but in the Midst of everything, I find comfort in you.

I've Lost 2 Nights of Sleep This Week to Complete my Assignments.

If this ain't Love then i don't know what Love is.



Happy 4th Monthsary Baby !
(see you tonight after my school :)
Thank you for your patience & most importantly your Love.

& i've Loved you more than you'll ever know.

Its My Life, Imma Do It and Do.
& If You Don't Like It Its Cool, Fuck You.

BUSY BUSY BUSY W/ SCHOOL WORK.
but SOMEHOW I DO ENJOY DOING IT (:

Ps : Especially when you're sitting beside me, looking at me patiently as i complete my assignments. ThanksBaby <3

*I hit the Jackpot, cha-cha cha cha cha cha chinggggg !!!!

Updates :

1. Caught G.I. Joe with girlf on monday.
2. Celeste's 12th birthday
( ps: must work hard for you PSLE ok?)
3. Caught my first ever soft toy in my life for baby @ Eastpoint's arcade while she was shopping for clothes w/ her mom.

Matching Shoes ^^

her Kitty Meow Meow



Look at her overjoyed and retarded face (HAHA)

Looking like a idiot carrying it around the streets.
(that's my girl)

Vassup !!!

Bruno was hilarious. Awesome Show, MUST WATCH!
Where Got Ghost, was somewhat expected.

spent my sunday w/ girlf at home watching tv; NDP & SG idol.
gonna catch G.I. Joe w/ girlf tomorrow !!! :D

I'm going out for movie marathon of "Where Got Ghost?" and "Bruno" with girlf today.
(i dont mind watching Bruno 2nd time with you feng, but weekdays and weekdays only)

"If my girlf doesn't like you, then most probably I dont either".

current mood :
LOST AND INSECURE.

GET WELL SOON BABY !!! :D

1st day of Schoolzzzz.

there you have it, start of GG day.
just woke up & i'm gonna go prepare now.
i can imagine taking the bus later & the dog feeling.

ps : remember to miss me baby! and don't be sad ok, remember my promises! (:

Chapter End/Start?

tomorrow marks the 1st day of school at **** for me.
tomorrow marks the end of my year long hiatus.
tomorrow marks the start of either an uphill or downhill slope.

be it today, yesterday or tomorrow.
i know you'll be there for me.