Heaven.
Throw away your myth misconceptions
There ain't no walls around heaven
There are no codes you gotta know to get in
No minutemen or border patrol

You must lose all earthly possession
Leave behind your weapon
You cannot buy your salvation
There is no pot of gold

Heaven ain't got no prisons
No government no business
No banks or politicians

No armies and No police

And I just can't keep living this way
So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up, Imma face my demons
I'm manning up, Imma hold my ground
I've had enough, now I'm so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now.

Nicole,

I'm going to sing this to you to bed when you come back here, even though I know you find my singing horrible.

http://www.learnsomethingeveryday.co.uk/

You may say I'm a Dreamer
but I'm not the only One.

You must watch & listen to this if you love The Beatles like I do.

NOWNESS: Skin Deep -- Horiyoshi III

Damien Hirst

"A lot of people thought I wasn't doing anything because I was spending a lot of time socialising and going out, but I've always managed to get work actually done."

"Artists are like everybody else. "

"But whenever I look at the question of how to live, the answer's always staring me in the face. I'm already doing it. "

"It'd be nice to make lots of money but it's quite difficult, because every time I make lots of money I make a bigger piece that costs lots of money. "

"So smoking is the perfect way to commit suicide without actually dying. I smoke because it's bad, it's really simple. "

"I think suicide is the most perfect thing you can do in life. "

"Oh Andy"
"An artist is somebody who produces things that people don't need to have."

"I suppose I have a really loose interpretation of "work," because I think that just being alive is so much work at something you don't always want to do. The machinery is always going. Even when you sleep. "

"I'd asked around 10 or 15 people for suggestions. Finally one lady friend asked the right question, 'Well, what do you love most?' That's how I started painting money."

"I'm the type who'd be happy not going anywhere as long as I was sure I knew exactly what was happening at the places I wasn't going to. I'm the type who'd like to sit home and watch every party that I'm invited to on a monitor in my bedroom. "

"I've decided something: Commercial things really do stink. As soon as it becomes commercial for a mass market it really stinks. "

"Making money is art and working is art and good business is the best art. "

Ezekiel 25:17 Pulp Fiction

David Letterman - "Family Guy" Top Ten with Stewie

David Letterman - Homer Simpson Top Ten

Nike "Write The Future" Homer Simpson VS Cristiano Ronaldo - HD 1080p

Robyn - Dancing On My Own

MUSE - Neutron Star Collision (Love Is Forever) [OFFICIAL VIDEO]

This Aint A Love Song - Official Video - Scouting For Girls

Owl City - Umbrella Beach

* not a huge fan of their songs, and even though their songs dont really have any link to their lyrics, i like their videos. something different.

Y-3 AUTUMN/WINTER 2010-11

KAWS Museum Exhibit Opening from Paper Fortress on Vimeo.

Ezekiel 25:17 - "... ... And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger to those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers. And you will know my name is the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon thee."

You'll try to hit me just hurt me

So you leave me feeling dirty,

Cause you can't understand.

"...imagine if you could take air, fry it and it became stiff, and you'll sit on it..."
Imagine.

Logan Hicks.

Stop Motion Drawing 2: Sugar Skull by Paul Alexander Thornton

Designers.
"...they worry about it, so that we don't have to."

WATCH !

Toy Story 3 !!!

Reservoir Dogs - Names

Mr. Pink

Who am I?

Today, I have decided that even though i like kids alot, I will not have any.

Music & Lyrics

I'm sure many of you have this question coming across your minds somewhere in your life "Why are oldies better than songs nowadays?"

Its not due to the fact of how long they've been around. And its not even about respect. If you're good, you're good period. Since you know its pretty much easy to carry a tune if you've got a good vocals and certain sense of rhythm [that im not so gifted with].

But what I'm trying to say here is that they add value to their songs. I'm not talking about just monetary value. Lyrical, poetic, human values. They teach us how to be human. I'm not trying to say songs nowadays don't. I'm saying they do not focus on that anymore.

Almost all the time i turn on the radio and what i hear is a juvenile wide eye baby-faced heart throb fusion of the Backstreet boys and Usher singing "....baby baby baby baby ooooh". Otherwise a creation of the multinational record company's product of selling a innocent looking hot chick which just turned 18 singing songs about going to clubs and having boys chasing after her and so she and her girlfriends are going around the malls shopping for new clothes and talking about cute guys.

What I look up to is the older generation of mine cos they've lived the hype of that era and seeing many of them holding firmly to the music of their generation. What i look down on is the generation right after me who are so deeply deprived of good music. Having to grow up on lyrics which want to tell them how to live their live, whats good for them, otherwise make them feel bad about themselves cos they will never ever live the dreams of whats told in the songs.

And as for myself I'm glad i'm born just in between. i got to choose my side. and obviously you know which side im on, period. PLUS the fact is that I do not readily accept whatever that's given to me, i choose what i want. You should too. Don't let the radios decide for you what you wanna hear.

On the other hand, what I'm even more ashamed [a better word would be disappointed] of is the Asian flock. I am Asian myself, we are the MAJORITY. Why do we let the supposedly "minorities" rule over us? why should we let them decide what should be POP and whats not? And why should we make them look POP when we have that deciding vote on who should be? You know what's worse than a {"juvenile wide eye baby-faced heart throb fusion of the Backstreet boys and Usher singing "....baby baby baby baby ooooh"}?

THAT IS TO MULTIPLY THAT BY 5 OR EVEN 13 [im not naming groups but i guess you're smart enough to guess] Imagine 5-13 of that singing and dancing together? Isn't that like the scene in toy story 2 where buzzlightyear goes into the toyshop and sees many other buzzlightyears, and nobody knows who's the real buzzlightyear, Except us the audiences who already know there isn't any real or fake cos they were carbon copies of one another and they have no value as to who they are. The only value they are good for is the value of which their fans hold true to them. [in the case of toy story, that's the buzz that belongs to Andy].

Well for that kind of value, I'm not interested. I'm neither fans to any of those. Music must be much more than this. Although i'm not talented in this area, im talented in listening and knowing what's good for me.

Excuse me, i don't know what i'm talking about here. In the midst of this inner debate between myself, i'm already tired and i don't really want to go on and talk about pros and cons. There really isn't any either anyways cos i got myself covered. I'm just sharing some views, some thought, some things that I like here, not gonna share about things i don't.

1*((*&^%#&*^(((*^@#^%^&((*&^$#@

*here's a secret saturday morning post for a special somebody*

(on-the-job)

I Love you, Nicole.

ps : will blog more perhaps today/tomorrow when i get home.

Updates.

Just a week ago, i've completed my foundation year in Lasalle. i passed. and im glad ive finally found something i love and would go to school for everyday. and finally settled my heart to put in everything ive got to focus on my studies.

as for my specialism, i've chosen to take up fine-arts : printmaking. fell in love with it at first touch. and greatly thanks to people like nicole, i was able to constantly stop and look at my progress and seek advice to improve along the way. thank you nicole.

and as for my holidays, ive got just about three months. not gonna bum this one away like i used to. ive got a job, readily and easily. considering the fact that i used to work there made it easier on top of certain relationship ties. yay. okay so im gonna bring home about 1.2k a month not inclusive of ot/meal-claims/transport-claims. i hope i'll add up to 1.5k hopefully.

lastly, im planning a trip to bangkok somewhere in july. so on account of that, i hope that the unrest in Thailand will settle real soon.

and LASTLY "Grey & Gray" is going underway. we're developing ideas and planning carefully, even though ive not really been doing much on my side here, thankfully i've got nicole. but but but i promise to play a bigger role and contribute more. hope everything will be ready by august before school starts. but as for now, i'll be working my ass off to raise funds to start my very own and very first business with nicole.

BYE BYE.

Eight-thirty to six : work.

Six to eight : ot.

Ten to six : sleep.

Total "me" time : zero.

Injustice.

For the whole of this term, i found strength, motivation and inspiration from the following :

1. Mom & Dad
2. Nicole
3. Cigarettes (as usual)
4. Red Bull
5. The Bloody Beetroots - We are From Venice ( morning wake-up song )
6. Coffee
7. Dad especially for $$$
8. Last term's poor results
9. Last term's last-minute state of emergency
10. Challenging & Competing with myself
11. Making a point to attend every lesson & critic session
12. Nicole especially for making sure that i stay healthy
13. Adam
14. Etc.

LAST LAP !
Summary : Sent my works to the framing workshop & will be ready by Monday. Minor details to be added into sketchbooks & a final surprise piece.

W.I.P. :

Hoping for the best but expecting the worst.

My FB wall is a disguise to lead people on thinking im playing mafia wars all day and not actually doing any work.

Okay, other than that, spending time with Nicole.
Kekekekeke.

Grey & Gray.

Thank you Nicoco!
I have learned so much from you in the past few days.
& thanks for being tolerant to my intolerance.
i will be tolerant. i will be tolerant. i will be tolerant.

FUCKING MACBOOK'S BATTERY TRASHED !
ARGHHHHH!

Monotype . Drypoint . Linocut .

It has been sometime since I last went straight to my work right after I step into my home.

Personal Most Anticipated Movies 2010 :
1. Ironman 2,
2. Clash of the Titans,
3. Kickass

Chica Boom!

"uhn tiss uhn tiss uhn tiss baby, uhn tiss uhn tiss uhn tiss"

I'm EXHAUSTED.

N*GGERS.

Okay, it's been really sometime since i last posted or at least expressed certain views in my mind over in this space. But a certain jackass just raised the lever(i know its kinda late to stumble upon this song, but since i'm not a fan : Jay-Z - Forever Young). I really don't know what the fuck is wrong with the world right now that we all stupidly listen to jackasses' music. In this study, Jay-Z. See in their songs, most of the time, they wanna sing and rap about their "high-life", and people actually do like to hear someone else going on and on about how rich they are?

So we actually like to envy other people and indirectly telling us "Hey screw you poor motherfuckers, i can rap, and I'm motherfucking rich".

Example :
"Slamming bentley doors,
Hopping out of Porsche's,
Popping up on Forbes Lists"

and no, I'm not at all jealous. I come to terms with things. But how many people really do know what they are listening? I went thru the whole song, and its all about this ass-crack putting glitter all over his name.

Example :
"Fear not die, I'll be alive for a million years, bye bye,
So not for legends, I'm forever young
My name shall survive
Through the darkest blocks, over kitchen stoves,
Over Pyrex pots, my name shall be passed down to generations while debating up in barber shops,
Young slung, hung here,
Shorty, the nigga from here"

FOR WHAT DO WE WANNA HEAR YOU GLORIFYING YOURSELVES? TELL ME, FOR WHAT. PAY TO LISTEN TO SHIT? NO FUCKING WAY.

Music these days, they have no value. True Value. Why? This is what these motherfuckers are teaching your kids :

"So lets just stay in the moment, smoke some weed,
Drink some wine,
Reminisce talk some shit forever young is in your mind
Leave a mark that can't erase neither space nor time"

Their music have totally no sense of direction. No creative value. No relativity. No inspiration. Almost nothing beneficial to the audience's mindset.

I don't know about you. As usual, i've come to terms with things. I'm just stating these out to prove my stand on their music.

And worst of all? They KNOW they suck and we're slowly beginning not to buy their music. So what do they do? Kill the music we Love. Its fair enough that you're doing your shit, we remain silent, practice self control and leave you alone to rot. Yet you wouldn't just leave us and the music we love alone. Tragic. There is no value in commercial music (At least most of them).

WHERE IN THE HELL HAS THE MEANING OF THE ORIGINAL SONG GONE TO AND BEEN UPHELD?

We're living in a era of contradictory advancement.

FUCK THE N*GGA WHO KILLED ALPHAVILLE'S - FOREVER YOUNG.

Who says I can't be free?
From all of the things that I used to be
Re-write my history
Who says I can't be free.

There is one conclusion to every story. We all fall down.

- Domino Harvey

If you're not making money with your art, you have to say its art. If you are, you have to say its something else.

Andy Warhol.

Lazy to type.
See Photos Below to Interpret.
(katy perry photo is random & for rj)

I can't write poems to express love,
but I can make sure you'll feel loved.

the next time a man does something to upset you
dont do that thing where you pretend nothings wrong
but you still show something wrong
and you just say keep askin
and then us men askin you just say nothin
because we'll stop after two times god damn you we'll stop
nothing means nothing in our book right?

next time i screw up
just look at me
fold your arms if you have to
because thats the worst thing in the world that you can do to a me
and just look me in the eye and say
" Someday Baby"

Thanks to All who wished me :
"Happy Birthday"
!!!
* life's not gonna be forever 18, but life will always feel like 18.

You think you might cross over
You're caught between the devil and the deep blue sea
You better look it over
Before you make that leap

We're burning down the highway skyline
Can we climb this mountain
I don't know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let's take it easy
Easy now, watch it go

The song maker says, It ain't so bad
The dream maker's going make you mad
The spaceman says, Everybody look down
Its all in your mind.

Another Sun soaked season fades away.....

I'll never be the same if we ever meet again
Won't let you get away say, if we ever meet again
This free fall's, got me so.

Kiss me all night, don't ever let me go
I'll never be the same
If we ever meet again

Im doin fine & the sun often shines
What are you thinking?
At the worst of my mind, with this thunderbird wine
Baby, Im drinking.

Since you went away, my heart breaks everyday
You dont know cos youre not there
You simply found the words to make all modern feelings fade away.

Only You Know Me.

I get Hysterical, Historical; of love is just chemical.
Give us something to stop me.

The Morning brings a Mystery,
The Evening makes it History.

Tell me how do you rate the morning sun?

Ive been doing what I like, when I like, how I like. Its joyless.

You dont care.
I dont care.
We dont care.

my Life,
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive
.

I think you should know by now I'm not attachment material.

Our Hopes & Expectations.
Black Holes & Revelations.

our time is running out
our time is running out
our time is running out
.

I just did something crazy.

If you'd ask me, I'd say I prefer older Women.
Generally.
(younger is fine too)

Though i don't really know who he is.....
but FUCK Ste**** Anyways.

Hopeful yet Hopeless.

Sometimes I wish that I do not have feelings. Then I would've been spared of all the agony of wanting someone so badly yet being so afraid to have any hopes at all.

I wish I could be every little thing you wanted all the time.

Cos I came around
& I knocked you down, down.

If there was any way that could let you know how much I want to be with you,
I would do it.

I don't wanna be just anybody,
I wanna be Somebody.

Pictures of You.

Some dudes know all the right things to say
When it comes down to it, its just a game.
Instead of talking let me demonstrate,
Get down to business and skip foreplay.

For You, special one.

Once you've gotten over it, the rest is history.

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you.

I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through

'Cause I know there's no life after you.

*All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do.

I know he left you stranded
& you paid the price when he messed up your life.
Girl I know you're so afraid
but i can't right the wrongs he did.

i wish im still working
@ RWS now.

Oh don't be shy, Lets cause a scene like Lovers do on silver screens.

I held my tongue as she told me :
" Son, Fear is the Heart of Love"
so i never went back.

My Love Horoscope :

Some hidden angst is manifesting itself in your life today, Pisces, and this is going to affect your romantic affairs. You may be feeling some discomfort in terms of your own personal fears or jealousies, or perhaps you r longings or desires are not being met. This may lead to some compulsive behavior on your part, or even have you coming across a little too demanding. These fears are often best ignored, but in some cases are fears or worries are trying to tell us something.

Is it possible that you have settled for something less than you deserve? Your instinct may be sending this message to you today, and you are best to pay attention to it. You know what and who will make you truly happy and complete, so why aren't you going after it?

Officially going on Solo.

One Month & On.

je voux ton amour et je voux ta revanche
je voux ton amour

One day in the near future, the asian civilization will rise up like a superpower that the face of the earth has never seen. & When that day comes, all those who despised, outraged and overpowered us over, will in turn do our bidding and will come forth to speak our tongues.

NOT THE OTHER WAY ROUND.

CTYL.

No other female,
(other than my mother of course)
Has ever caused a greater impact in my life other than you.

-Rt19th-

For All the time and thought Spent,
Now WHAT FOR?

"i'm going to have sushi with *****"

* when those words came out, i began to doubt myself whether i made the right decision to fall in love all over again.

NEVER TRUST YOUR HEART.

Last Day of Work
= TOMORROW

My Love Horscope :

Things have been a little too intense for you lately, Pisces, and your romantic affairs have been nothing less than confusing. This is a good time to spoil yourself a little bit, and spend some time with the people who love you the most. You have been craving some sweetness and comfort for some time, and affection is what you desire most right now. You are not going to achieve this with the nature of your romantic affairs unfortunately, but by seeking comfort from those who love you unconditionally, you are likely to rejuvenate your confidence a little bit. If there is a romantic prospect you need to speak with, you are best to do so with a soft heart, and only then will you see the progress you desire.

You're not the First or the Last,
but you're Possibly the Prettiest.

My Love Horoscope :

This is a time Pisces where you truly need to listen to your heart and to your intuition as well. If someone keeps cropping up in your mind and there is some worry attached to this, now is the time to nip this in the bud. Your ability to sense when something is wrong will help you to help someone that is a romantic interest or prospect. You will be able to come up with solutions that will put them at ease. Have some caution today as well as someone may be jealous of your romantic progress, treat this person with respect instead of with animosity. It could just be that they are not using their intuitions as successfully as you are. In this case, focus on your own romantic goals, and not on anyone else's, and you will see progress in love.

My top priority resolution of
2010 :

Party less, keep the art going. Appreciate the ones around me and most importantly make Mom & Dad Proud.