I can't wait to go back to being an art-nerd.
11th Jan 2010.
(art-friend colours)

Okay, this year's X'mas can pass.
in fact quite kick-ass.

I HAD FUN W/YOU GUYS! (WHOEVER I WAS WITH LAST NIGHT)

Ps : not forgetting the true meaning of Christmas, Jesus.

I OWE YOU BIG TIME.

From : My Love Horoscope

Some honest conversation is long overdue when it comes to romance, Pisces, and today is as good a day as any for it. Whether you are single or attached, today is a good time to express your feelings with conviction, knowing that there will be response in kind. Situations that arise now will have lasting clarity and a quality of reinvention as they move along, as your head and heart are on the same page and will tend to remain that way. Giving and receiving appreciation, love, and happiness come into your life now. You are moved to express your affections more openly than usual, and you will be presented with opportunities to do just so with just the right person. This is not the time to ignore these open doors, as they will surely close soon enough.

From : My Love Horoscope

Your emotions are running like a roller coaster right now, Pisces, and this may make for some uncomfortable moments for you today. This is a romantic situation where you want to avoid making any hasty decisions or impulsive connections, as any new romances started today are not going to be the long lasting ones you desire. Tempers may even flare today, if you confront these issues with your standard good nature, you are likely to experience the success you need to in love today.

If you fall for me
Im not easy to please
I might tear you apart
Told you from the start
Baby form the start

Im only gonna break, break your,
break, break your heart.

13th December,
a new beginning.

2912?
I know you saw the lipstick on my window,
and wondered how many chicks' been to my home.
I've done my share of playing games,
but for you i can give up that life.

3 Months Later.....
its the 4th of December.

i can finally say i've moved on.
i can finally say we're through.
i can finally look at you and realize the hideousness,
and not deny that fact.
now i despise and look down on you as inferior.

well all i can say is, revenge is sweet. you can run,
but you can never hide from karma.
bring on the onslaught.

ps : on a brighter note, at least heaven's fair.

Decisions are made and not bought. But I thought this wouldn't hurt a lot,

I guess not.

So let me introduce you to my world,

big diamonds and pearls' all part of being my girl.

HOLIDAYSSSSSSS !!!!

48 Hours or So ?!?!


36x18 inches
Acrylic & markers on Canvas

I Love:
CMYKRGB.

As I Recall.

i once feared school's gonna make me lose you.
i did all i could,
i planned my time well,
i sacrificed whatever i could.

Well i still eventually lost you,
not cos of school,
not cos of me,
but because of you.

now that school's taking a long break soon,
now that life's without you,
holidays would surely be much more fufilling and enriching.
cos i no longer live for you, i live for me and my dreams.

Drawing homework complete !
Down to :
- 3D
-2D

LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL!

MY LIFE'S MORE HAPPENING THAN YOURS !
HA HA HA!!! XD

Perfect Bronze Tan
Long Lustrous Black Hair
3-inch high heels
Tube Dress

that's the kinda girl which i can only find in my dreams.

Total Damage : 17 Hours.

BUSY. BUSY. BUSY.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.

My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
whichever you prefer.

Roll : 01

The Rebellion.

For once in so long, i've finally managed to have a fun night out with my friends.
ps : thanks edwin, meimei & co, i really enjoyed myself with you guys today.
(Happy Birthday to MOM, Kevin, Esther & Elaine; that is if you guys manage to see this space)

Went Rebel. (too bad aaron & many others missed it, wish you guys could be here with me too)
(especially you aaron, meet up soon!)
(ivan & weihong, take loads of care while in tekong! can't wait to see your clean shaved scalps in two weeks time :)

OKAY, NOW BACK TO NORMAL LIFE.
which includes : art, lasalle, sleepless nights, projects, assignments, forgetting to have my meals, endless spamming of cigs to stay awake, etc.
(all in all, its all good fun. i enjoy this lifestyle, apart from being "drained", tired and sleepless all the time)

Resolutions : stop missing classes. sleep early. finish my assignments on time (recently ive found myself less and less motivated to do my work; i procrastinate and get easily distracted, WHY?)

i really love school work honestly. even though it's quite taxing, but at the end of the day, the satisfaction i get from my end-product is just so encouraging. i need new motivations to keep me going on. URGENTLY.

WILL UPLOAD PHOTOS + SHOTS FROM FISHEYE & PHOTOGRAPHY CLASS SOON.
(its been sometime since i added some "real" photos)

MY BED ( special dedication; will sound kinda lame)
sorry for the past few months of neglecting you. in my heart you're still the best bed i'll ever have (thus far of course). from now on i will try to spend more time with you instead of you-know-what kinda bed (totally cacat and out of your league, thanks). and yes ! after this post im coming for you to give me that never-failing comfort that you had always given me.

SO BYE WORLD, HELLO BEDTIME.

I find it some-sort funny and freaky that women that happen to appear in my life, seems to have their names starting with the letter J.

eg, Mom : Julie.

PAY WAY !
:D

Time & Money
i used to say:
"wo you de shi shi jian(time), mei you de shi qian(money)"
now i'd say:
"wo you de shi qian(money), mei you de shi jian(time)"

The Beauty of Irony:
(keeps me amused and everlastingly amazed)

I'd Rather say : "I've Made It",
rather than saying : "I will do it", "I can do it", "I can make it" (someday/somehow you never will)

this is why i keep my mouth shut in situations like these and observe.
I am Watching.

ps : in the meantime "Fake it till you make it"
- Steven Tyler

Cos we were meant to live for so much more,
Have we lost ourselves?

Thanks for the entertainment.
(and giving me a very good excuse to exercise my well trained and honed use of grammar)

Seriously, there is more to life than just hate (and my hate-posts).
So please? if you're still following my blog (you stalker/persistent bitch/whore) please stop?

there is a reason to why i changed my link? hello? i've got better things to do you know? and which stupid idiot would stand by and just let you rant your stupid, baseless and non-evidence supported comments?

so please, move on, live your life. fuck off my thinking space, fuck off my point of view, and fuck off my "freedom-of-speech" space. you dont like what you see here, i kindly invite you to stop stalking (cos its not like i didn't try to change my blog address). spare yourself and myself all these un-necessary trouble?

i seriously understand that you have no future, which is why you're so free to do all these funny things. but hello? you don't want yours, doesn't mean that i don't want mine you know? mine is every bit worth fighting for, while yours? just another typical perfect example of "FAIL" and "FUTURE GONE".

wow a new slogan !

Usually in such situations I'd say "Suck My Balls", but sorry you already did.

Seriously the difference between a good rebuttal and a bad one is very clear.
A good one is well supported with many substantial evidences.
Sadly, a bad one doesn't have much of any solid evidences, and at most of the times, they're filled with emotions and more emotions. (which are quite meaningless against me)

If you had realized, your emotion filled rebuttals don't amaze me at all. you need to try harder.
In such situations I'd say : "Suck My Balls". But sorry, you already did. (Literally & out of so many people i told this to, you literally did)

ps : refer to Oct 12th's post if you haven't. cos that's my main argument. in my eyes, you're forever "CBLL" from that day on. think you have something about me that's worse than that? bring it on. Whore.

So well you think waiting's a bliss?
I simply think you're just plain pathetic.

You are such a Joke.
Seriously, i don't give a single damn about you,
cos you know why?

People like you, don't go far in life.
Got no ambition, got no future.

Not that i'm looking down on people, but then again, you look down on your own family background and you're ashamed of it anyways. You undermine basic human values and proved yourself to be a scum of the society. we don't need that. Don't try to teach me or tell me how things should go, you fucking juvenile, you're like what? 16? ffs you're not even 17 and you can go around as if its something you could be proud of. someday i really hope you'll look back and realize how much of a loser you are, though you might think you're at the top of the world now, you think you got what you want, you think. but then you'll realize its all worth nothing.

Why did i even downgrade myself for someone like you?
time to open your eyes baby, its a big world out there.

almost forgot about one of my all-time favorite slogans :
"Smirk and say FTW"
-Kenric

I am in Love w/ myself, art & (insert female name here).

And we cover our lies with handshakes and smiles
And we try to remember our alibis
We tell lies to our parents, who hide in their rooms
We bury our secrets in the garden
Of course we could never make this love last
I said of course we could never make this love last
The only love we know is love for ourselves
We bury our secrets in the garden

I know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell
This pain won't last forever, this pain won't last forever.

Everybody Needs
a Lil' Bit of Jesus Sometimes.

My fingers are full of cuts and blisters from handling the galvanized wire :(

BYE BYE CHEEBAI LENG LENG !!!
(1st ever such post on my blog; lowest i can stoop to, quite low i suppose?)

ps : no. 8+ in 10 months?
(this is seriously the final impression you left on my mind; hope you'll weep over this)

pss: no more emo posts.
(at least for now:)

*& shit you guys, dont ask me what this is about. im not gonna elaborate. bye bye.

You will Live to Regret This Decision.
Mark My Words.

Seriously Other Than Jesus (no.1 Best Friend), Lucky I had forseen this disaster and had my 2nd Best Friend on standby ($$$).

I'd Come For You
By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you

Comeback Time.
Old and New pursuits merge and harmonize;
back to label days & hello to artist/tattooist days.

ps : there were 5 digits at my "Account Balance" all along.
(5 digit : $xx,xxx.xx)

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart.

Would you be able to lie to yourself and deny the fact that you still care?

i miss Jesus.

In the first place,
do you still need me to care for you?

it seriously pisses me off when people steal my ideas.
especially when the person you are totally contradicts my ideas.

furthermore, its even worse when you had a history of backstabbing me based on that very idea itself. dont make yourself look like a joke.

And Baby if you wanted me to, why not say so
Let me go cause I cant shine bright enough for you

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me
You can take back your memories they're no good to me
And here's all your lies,
You can look me in the eyes
With that sad sad look that you wear so well....

So when you see my face now,
Hope it really gives you hell.

Catch me if you can
(and afford to), Bring it on.

ask yourself with conviction :
" do i have any real friends? "

Now we can all Fuck the 19th.

All "LANJIAO" one.

The more you love, the more you lose a part of you.
Yet you don't become less of you.
Instead, you end up being complete...

You've got my parking coupon already laaaaaaa!
Like we said, 3 months.
Like you said, you've given up that life.
19 of April?
Max plus combo.
"Never thought i'll fall in love love love. But now max max max."
All along i've given up, teach me,
how to love again.

The way you smile, makes me feel like i'm the most fortunate girl in the world.

BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR VERY OWN LPDR!!!!!!!

Me wanna go webcam with baby already.Let's have slumber party from Monday to Wednesday okay. We go buy the whole 7-11 and we'll have all the chips. Woooo. Goodnight all!

Hi baby, this post is specially for you. ^^
Remember to study hard and score well for your exams kay.
No worries, i will always support you. Promise.
Love you always.

Loverboy whipped spaghetti with mushroom, ham and melted cheese with bacon bits on the top for me last Friday. (;

My heart is in you.
Where you go, you carry me.
I bleed, if you bleed.
Your heart beats inside of me.
You're keeping me alive.

I'll hold you near.
Together, we'll never die.
Your love is keeping me alive.

it wasn't me who changed. all along I've been blaming myself for nothing. the problem wasn't even me to begin with.

Ivan : "PAI LOH TI !!!"

HAHAHAH ! you next to kena. ^^

Diamonds Aren't Forever,
Fame is.

and cos now your name's stained,
2nd best is all you will know; diamonds?

Reflect & Think.

People like you,
Do not go far in life.

I Provide Free Tuition.
Contact me if you're interested.
k3nric@hotmail.com

(for friends only)

Updated Importance Chart :
1. Money
2. Mom & Dad
3. Friends
4. Music
5. Cigs
6.Art
7. Food
8. Warcraft
9. Blogs and Facebook
10. You

your smell still lingers on my garmets, and as it used to sweetly serenade me, now it brings me deep deep misery. asking myself "baby, why arent you here with me?"

So what if the one whom they claims "don't look for him anymore, you've found him" isnt the one you're with now. is however the one you've found and is here waiting all along but you've forsaken?

What if?

A Heartbreaker Right From The Start

remember when I caught your eye?
you gave me rainbows and butterflies
we did enjoy our happiness ?
when our love was over
I was such a mess

I smiled at you
and you smiled back
that’s when I knew
there ain’t no turning back
you said you loved me
and I did too
now though it’s over
I still love you

you’re in my mind
you’re in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you’d break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

I tried to fight it
I tried so hard
and every day
I pray to god
that you and me were meant to be
but you had another
you had a lover
and now its gone
I don’t know why
I feel like crying
just want to die
I can’t look at you
and you know why
no I tried so hard
to catch your eye

you’re in my mind
you’re in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you’d break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

What seemed to be a perfect love story, just turned into a typical betrayal love story under the manipulation of your very own hands.

I Never Forget a Face,
but in your case I'll make an Exception.

I've Cut You Out, Now Set Me Free.


And now I see it's you
That's tearing me, ensnaring me
This is me dying in your arms,
I cut you out, now set me free

Lynched high above what used to be
In her channels built for me
So I escaped cut this noose around my
neck, Let god be free to see the things you blinded me.
And I shoved you far away.
Now I live the life I dreamed of.
You're dead to me.

You poisoned my life
So I take this knife
And I cut you out
Cut you out.

Kelaric.
Love of my life, you hurt me,
You broken my heart, now you leave me.

Love of my life cant you see,
Bring it back bring it back,
Dont take it away from me,
Because you dont know what it means to me.

Love of my life dont leave me,
Youve stolen my love now desert me,

You will remember when this is blown over,
And everythings all by the way,
When I grow older,
I will be there at your side,
To remind how I still love you
I still love you.

Hurry back hurry back,
Dont take it away from me,
Because you dont know what it means to me.

(Queen - Love Of My Life)

You Caught Me Off Guard.

For all these months that I've known you baby
I can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold
If there's a problem we should work it out
So why you giving me the cold shoulder now
Like you don't even wanna talk to me girl.

Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
It's not me here who's been going round slamming doors
That's when you turned and said to me :
"I don't care babe who's right or wrong,
I just don't love you no more."

Rain outside my window pouring down
What now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorry
Feeling like a fool cause I let you down
Now it's, too late, to turn it around
I'm sorry for the tears I made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said :
"I just don't love you no more"

I know that I made a few mistakes
But never thought that things would turn out this way
Cause I'm missing something now that your gone
Me at the door with you in a state
Giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That's when you turned and said to me
"I don't care babe who's right or wrong,
I just don't love you no more."

Don't say those words it's so hard
They turn my whole world upside down
Girl you caught me completely off guard
On the night you said to me
I just don't love you more.

I wake up every morning haunted by the fact that things will never be the same again.
But can we still save the last dance?

And as i await your return at the sidelines,
i'd anticipate your fall, catch you before you hit the ground.

well who can escape the wrath of karma? i didn't.

& as always, i'll be here for you.

Its time you're done with your share of playing games & have given up that life for me.

I used to be that guy in your webcam.

In two more years, my sweetheart, we will see another view
Such longing for the past for such completion
What was once golden has now turned a shade of grey
I've become crueler in your presence

They say: "be brave, there's a right way in a wrong way"
This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever

You've cried enough this lifetime, my beloved polar bear
Tears to fill a sea to drown a beacon
To start anew all over, remove those scars from your arms
To start anew all over more enlightened

I know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell
This pain won't last for ever, this pain won't last for ever

I've become crueler since I met you
I've become rougher, this world is killing me

And we cover our lies with handshakes and smiles
And we try to remember our alibis
We tell lies to our parents, we hide in their rooms
We bury our secrets in the garden
Of course we could never make this love last
I said of course we could never make this love last
The only love we know is love for ourselves
We bury our secrets in the garden

Even if you would just upload an ant sized picture of me, i would be jumping for the stars.

So tell me, when will i ever clear this Karma debt....

I Still Remember.

And I can see our days are becoming nights.
I could feel your heartbeat across the grass.
We should have run.
I would go with you anywhere.
I should have kissed you by the water

Just when Fridays are the days i look forward to,
you made it into a day that i dread would come.

Gaylords and Hongsters, you can all suck my balls.

Look who's completed his Color Chart(s) yet again. ^^

My dream car has just changed from Audi R8 to....

Mercedes Benz 2010 SLS AMG !!!
OMG OMG OMG !!!

this is what happens when you mess with the wrong guy.....

Me :

"Home, is when you've been holding your shit on the long bus journey back, then you light up a cigarette and sit on your great white throne & poop."

My Guardian Angel.

* cos this is why i know i'll be okay, though my skies are turning grey.

Irreplaceable.

I Mean It.

Sometimes before we get to
"You and me against the world",
we get to situations like
"You and me against the nerds".

You've done your share of playing games,
& its time for you to give up that life.

I Did.

I'm just saying
May your face
Minimize the human race.

This way we can be together
Make threats to switchblade lovers.

Some people Love to Live....
.....I Live to Love.

"he ain't better, so we aren't gonna fall apart"

These arms will keep you safe,
& they aren't letting go.

Listen to Your Heart & You'll see.

.
I Know Right Now You Don't Care
But Soon Enough You're Gonna Think Of Me
And How I Used To Be.

HO-SEH-BO !?!?!

COLOUR CHART MASS PRODUCTION ?!?!?

Let Me Be The One You Don't Wanna Disappoint.

i hate it when my glue runs out when i'm pasting my research pictures 1/2 way.

SHHHHH, OBSERVE.

Remember ?

SPEECHLESS. DUMBFOUNDED. HYSTERICAL.
Up till now, I've finally realized what I am up against.

* kenric, ur such a joke.

2nd Chance.
Don't hang up, Can we talk?
So confused, It's like im lost.
What went wrong? what made you go?
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me, I'll change for you.

When did we Fall apart?
Or did you lie From the start?
When you said It's only you
I was blind Such a fool
Thinking we Were unbreakable


I've been told Whats done is done
To let it go And carry on
And deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time I'm stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said?
was it something that I did?
Cause I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful.

All I ever needed was one more chance to prove myself.
Was it all too Late?

This year,
I lost my Best-friend,
I lost the greatest Love I've found.

Life. Goes. On.

In my eyes, you are the most beautiful.
& nothing else can ever replace this feeling.

Hush.
This is as quiet as it gets
Hush down now
Go to sleep
We were once perfect me and you
Will never leave this room

Hush
You color my eyes red
Your loves not live it's dead
This letters written itself inside out again
When rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends
Hush this is where it ends

This is the calming before the storm
This absolution is always incomplete
It's always bittersweet
.
"i'll leave when the wind blows"
"you and me against the world"
"together"
"insomnia"
'"unbeautiful"
.
and so on.....
*cos you gave me the best mixtape i have.

The Best Days Of My Life, Thus Far.
















*Photographs are now my only source of comfort and recollection of this beautiful memory.

To : A Special Somebody

19th April 2009 was the start of an experience I'll never ever forget. 30th August 2009 is the day that this experience ended. I would say it all started out Beautifully and it ended with mixed feelings and emotions.

Thank you for all the good memories and life lessons you taught me, they are the most valuable possessions i own now. i will keep them safe in my heart till the day that i die. I am not afraid of admitting to my mistakes. I took you for granted. My attitude towards you changed and i didn't respect your freedom and privacy. Silly me even went to the extent to becoming a "stalker". I went up to your house and secretly looked at you from your window. I know you people out there will laugh at me, but I'm not afraid of letting the whole world know. For it was what i believed would help the situation, but it only made things worse. I only have myself to blame for being unable to control myself but i couldn't take it that things were left hanging. Maybe things would have turned out differently if i had the patience, but maybe not, for the chances you gave me were beyond what you could give.

I don't expect to be able to turn back the time for i have always lived on the principle to never regret. Yes, I do feel it, but would this self pity and dwelling help anything. Perhaps its time to move on.

I've tarnished my entire impression in your eyes and I am nothing less than a "fucking asshole", "sicko pervert". It is all too late for me to do anything anymore. I wish that I've made a positive impact in your life. But, I know that in reality, the picture I've painted wasn't all that perfect. With you I've learnt that Giving up part of myself, doesn't make me less of a person, in fact it made me more "complete" as a person. Maybe someday we'll know what exactly went wrong, but for now i only have my own selfish actions to blame.

I know in the game of Love, nobody is right nor wrong. Maybe the way i expressed my love for you wasn't correct and was somehow lost in translation from my feelings to actions. All I can do now is stand up from the fall and look forward to other things life has to offer.

From here, i wish you all the best. I wish you happiness. And most importantly I hope that you will make right choices from now on. There is so much on my mind now that i simply cannot put them all into words. But i hope that deep down inside, you already understand this realization I've come to. Friends?

Thanks For The Memories.

who would ever know how it feels like to be in my shoes?

all it ever takes was to pop + "trivum-dying in your arms" to make things right. or is it?

Someday.

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables

I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late

Nothin's wrong just as long as
you know that someday I will...

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
You're the only one who knows that

Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

* someday somehow, i'm going to make it. mark these words.

( ps : i miss you, my pumpkin poopykins ):

& all i ever ask for was for you to be Proud of Me.

MY EGG DID NOT BREAK AFTER FALLING FROM THE 5TH FLOOR .
OMFG OMFG OMFG !!!

OMFG 6 HOURS !!!!!

WHY?

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go
Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know I love you.

Ps : Please don't give up on this.

INCREASING WORKLOADS & STRESS.
but in the Midst of everything, I find comfort in you.

I've Lost 2 Nights of Sleep This Week to Complete my Assignments.

If this ain't Love then i don't know what Love is.



Happy 4th Monthsary Baby !
(see you tonight after my school :)
Thank you for your patience & most importantly your Love.

& i've Loved you more than you'll ever know.

Its My Life, Imma Do It and Do.
& If You Don't Like It Its Cool, Fuck You.

BUSY BUSY BUSY W/ SCHOOL WORK.
but SOMEHOW I DO ENJOY DOING IT (:

Ps : Especially when you're sitting beside me, looking at me patiently as i complete my assignments. ThanksBaby <3

*I hit the Jackpot, cha-cha cha cha cha cha chinggggg !!!!

Updates :

1. Caught G.I. Joe with girlf on monday.
2. Celeste's 12th birthday
( ps: must work hard for you PSLE ok?)
3. Caught my first ever soft toy in my life for baby @ Eastpoint's arcade while she was shopping for clothes w/ her mom.

Matching Shoes ^^

her Kitty Meow Meow



Look at her overjoyed and retarded face (HAHA)

Looking like a idiot carrying it around the streets.
(that's my girl)