Trash.
( you probably wouldn't like what i say. so if you're not open minded, press alt-f4)


surprisingly the thing i love about secondary school is that it's filled with posers and wannabes.
kids who're so naive and all they know is to be a "follower".


never EVER conform.
hello? so whats so cool about having what everyone else has. whats so cool about jumping on the bandwagon of bgr. whom you'll end up heartbroken and realising that you've wasted all your time on somebody you thought you knew inside out, but time has exposed every single ugly fact about him/her.


girls, bitching about one another in class is the juiciest thing that keeps me awake.
guys talking about pretty girls just makes me roll my eyeballs, cos girls they talk about aren't so pretty afterall. and even if they are, their hearts are black and evil.


im not saying im the angel who's all perfect. i never was and i never aimed to be one. you see i've seen the beauty and the ugly of people, yet i still feel that there's more to that. what drives me isnt simply looking at their ugly sides, however its infering the motives and reasons behind them. believe me, they're far more hype-worthy than that"cute-korean-guys/hunks" or that "teen-pop-drama-queen".


girls bringing magazines to class, showing everyone what "i'm going to buy" and never end up buying them anyways. girls getting hyped over make-up but ended up making mess of their faces, simply makes me laugh in sheer triumph that my expectations were spot-on.


parents, teachers, friends, everyone around you. tells you " do well for your studies". well some just blindly follow and there goes the never ending race to be the "best". some end up losing all the fun of growing up. you've only got one life, have fun with it, NEVER be a mugger.


well i figured out that people don't see me the way i really am, some might even find me weird, well who gives the damn. cos millions of thoughts run through my mind while looking at them on one basic reason : " you pathetic kids who let others decide / influence how your life should flow"


sometimes i really wanna shut my mouth and keep my comments to myself. but who can resist the temptation to shoot my mouth off at the littlest things people do? well i've got a perfect example of a person who "allowed others decide how her life should flow"


well a straight A student. sounds nice. scored 6 pts. wow. went to a top jc, impressive. didn't know what she wanted in life. so followed her parents footsteps. interviewed to be a teacher. went to NIE. and eventually became a teacher, impressive. now almost thirty, single and probably never had a lover-boy. sees the other pretty teacher and then decides to be a follower and wants to look "pretty". makeover, cool. contact lenses, amazing. starts to wear dresses, not bad. but however pretty she might have turned out (it didn't turn out good in fact) she'll always be labelled as a "follower". you think she'd wanted to dress up and all if not for following the other "pretty" teacher? awww, now you wanna tell me how i should run my life when your life's a complete "factory product"?


well so let me say. choose the right people you wanna hear advises from. if you've got such a teacher, obviously you wouldn't wanna hear advises from that hag-to-be. simply let her teach whatever she subject is, but not let her tell you what to do with your life. simple.


so what if you do well in studies, land a stable job? ask yourself, is your life even fun? is it even worth a best-seller if it was written into a novel? well you might say i'm just a 17 year old whose not been thru that. thats true, but at least i've got this idea of "who-i-wanna-be" and "who-i-dont-wanna-be", rather than your "what-daddy-&-mommy-wants-me-to-be" and "what-society-thinks-i-should-be" mentality ! HAHA!


well you can argue "wait! i know what i want to be!". then ask yourself again " did i want to be that because daddy/mommy/uncle/aunty/society said its good?" or simply because the monetary pay-outs are good. id say shallow, simply shallow. superbly shallow. well then again would you wanna do something that pays yet you wake up each day asking yourselves "is this what i really want?" so another advise is : put money aside, think about what you love to be.


you can say this isn't realistic. fine. then i ask you, are we going to bring our money to our deathbeds? well i rather live poor than being haunted by the thinking that "is this what i really want?" and c'mon NOBODY in our times would still choose to be a road-sweeper, toilet-cleaner, money aside. they still wouldnt choose that, so give it a try and ask yourselves today "who i wanna be" and "who i dont wanna be", with a secondary thinking that you wouldn't regret doing it. and isnt it more rewarding and fufilling to be doing what you love, and at the same time strike rich doing it? (again money secondary). why for do you need lavish lives? i only need one that could get me by, as long as i'm happy, as long a i don't regret what i do.


KENRIC! 2:15 a.m. 31st July 2008.
* life filled with regrets is more likely due to you doing what others think you should do. while life filled without regrets is doing what you think you should do. ( without compromising morals and laws)

Secondary School Life : Revisited.

Firstly, i came from a humble neighbourhood school : Unity Secondary.

Secondly, i didn't score well enough in my PSLE to enter the school.

I spent my first two weeks of school in Regent Secondary, one hell of a place you won't wanna be in if you wanna get serious about studies. Then the office called me in one day and i was greeted by my mother saying "Unity has a vacancy". (the reason i managed to get the transfer was because i was a basketball player)

so on such short notice, but with much enthusiasm, i attended unity secondary the very next day. it was hard getting used, considering the fact that everyone has been there for 2 weeks while i'm just somebody who came out of nowhere.

but kenric pulled thru secondary one, despite the fact that he is LAST position of the whole cohort at the start of the year, but came up somewhere 70th/201 people. well i really wonder : what were the other 130 people behind me thinking? hello Number 201 became your 70 in one year? not just that, 4th placing in class, 2 good improvement awards, 1 eagles award. hows that for a PSLE 212 (my score) compared to the worst of 219?

yea this went on for secondary two, but something happened at the very end of secondary two, well kenric missed his last two papers : maths and science cos he got into trouble with the law. got locked up, charged, and slammed with a sentence to serve. so when sec3 started, things didn't go so well, and basketball: he gave up on it. then his grades slipped, slipped and slipped. and at the end of sec3 i could say my rankings fell to 120/190 or so?

BUT WHO CARES? HELLO? cos mister who slept thru secondary school life eventually got BETTER results than you muggers. so EAT this.

so at mid years secondary4, guess what? i was still at 109/188. attendance 177/190. class position 29/41. BUT did all these matter? all i had to do was to do what wasn't expected of me at the papers which meant everything. that the O's. fuck CA1, fuck class tests, fuck homework, fuck prelims, fuck CA2, fuck mid-years. lastly, fuck the people who thought you wouldn't pull through. some examples were : big brother Kevin ( dude i did better than you so EAT this), mmm and several other people which i don't think is appropriate to mention.

Special thanks to teachers like :

Mr Ak Teoh (basketball) : for givin lots of encouragement

Miss Patricia Koh (history) : for being a good teacher who made history so interesting.

Mrs Quah (chemistry) : for pushing everyone to do well

Mr Chew (discipline) : for guiding me along the way

Mrs Lum / Tay (sec1&2 teacher) : for believing in me

Chen Lao Shi : ( she got me from chinese failure to A2 at prelims) + making chinese fun ( tho i still hate it)

Ms Lee FS (ss/geography) : for making ss/geog so fun and your constant encouragement

Mr Ng (english) : for being a smart aleck always thought your english was all that good. and i got the A with my own effort, nothing came from you.

so here are some statistics.

History : i ever scored 28/100, But at o's A.

English : always been my baby.

Geography : hated it and sucked at it, But at o's A.

Maths and Science : had sucked all along with numbers.

Chinese : all time most hated subject.

sum all these up you still got yourself an 11 pointer.

and regarding my cca basketball, it was a sport i picked up at a very young age, 6 to be exact.

gold medals and trophies never stopped coming in till 14 when i quit the game. learned lots of things on this sport, teamwork, discipline, perseverance, etc. oh yes, did i tell you i own at long distance races?

well it was also at this place where i got to know friends whom i know will be there for me when i need em. it was also the founding place of PPHC. what more can i ask for?

one advice. kenric : " Always have faith in yourselves, believe, take risks, never let others push you around. aim to make your parents proud. constantly ask yourselves ' who do i wanna be 20 years down the road' and keep working towards making sure you don't turn out into something else. and even if you eventually fail, well at least you're somewhere close."

KENRIC! 11:43 p.m. 30th July 2008

* 20, Choa Chu Kang St. 62. 2004-2007.

While National Day's round the corner.....

its 2008 hello?
see what we've done with 43 years!

i'd do a follow up post when the big day approaches.
and while people look forward to the olympics,
i anticipate our nation's birthday more eagerly than just the olympics
(even though i do anticipate for the olympic games)

and i hereby declare,
I'm Proud to be Singaporean.

KENRIC! 2:16 a.m. 30th July 2008.
* livin' the Singaporean Dream.

almost 10 Years,
can you believe it?



neither can i....
i seldom dedicate any post for anyone but harro?
mister up there has known me for 10 years !


i'm ferry ferry happy cos knowing him for so-so many years,
he has finally has shown the heart for his studies.


& of cos finally approached me to help him :D
in the past i used to persuade him to study, study,
or at least think about his future.


but nope, i always get scolded / given negative replies till i've given up on asking.....
so can you believe how happy i was when he's decided that he wanna do well.....
finally decided that he wants a future which he can work towards to ?


yea, so here's to you bro.
hope that you don't give up.
& im not just hoping that you'll do well,
i'm sure, damn sure that if you continue at this pace, you're going to do well.


KENRIC! 12:31 a.m. 24th July 2008.


There are places I remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all


But of all these friends and lovers, There is no one compares with you

i've finally understood what you meant when you said that you want it all, or nothing at all.

KENRIC! 12:39 a.m. 22nd July 2008

why am i running away?

cos they're still sick asses who likes to fan the dust and say senseless things.

ok please & hello?

it was by human nature and basic survival practice to pick yourself up after some asshole screwed things up isn't it? do people still have to dig up the shit and hope that this asshole would be ashamed of himself/herself? no !

in fact if i was that asshole, IF was was that asshole. i would seriously do what i'm doing right now. voicing myself out at my very own "freedom of speech" corner (blogger). and if facts prove that i'm that asshole, i wouldn't be STILL ashamed of myself.

so tell me people, are you admiring how i'm picking myself after some other sick ass is trying to screw me? frankly you dont have to, cos you can do it too.

FUCK YOU ! .....

now pick yourself up.

now tell me, how natural was that?

Midnight Hour - Running Away

Don't lie and say that it's ok
It's alright here, there's nothing more to say.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

Don't tell me I'm the one to blame.
It's too late for you to make me stay.
No, I won't stay.
So I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

And faster than you can follow me from this lonely place.
And farther than you can find me, I'm leaving
Yeah I'm leaving today.
And I, I'll never let you find me.
I'm leaving you behind with the past
No, I won't look back.
And I don't want to hear your reasons.
Don't want to hear you tell me why I should stay.

And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away.

I'm running away.
I'm leaving this place.
Yeah, I'm running away.
I'm running away.

KENRIC! 1:09 a.m. 18th July 2008.

& As I Recall ....

Still a little bit of your taste in my mouth
Still a little bit of you laced with my doubt
Still a little hard to say what's going on

Still a little bit of your ghost your witness
Still a little bit of your face I haven't kissed
You step a little closer each day
Still I can't say what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball

Still a little bit of your song in my ear
Still a little bit of your words I long to hear
You step a little closer to me
So close that I can't see what's going on

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannon

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
So come on courage!
Teach me to be shy
'Cause it's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna scare her
It's not hard to fall
And I don't wanna lose
It's not hard to grow
When you know that you just don't know

Quotes I Find Interesting / Somewhat agree with :

Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one. - Bill Gates

If GM had kept up with technology like the computer industry has, we would all be driving $25 cars that got 1000 MPG. - Bill Gates

Life is not fair; get used to it. - Bill Gates

Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose. - Bill Gates

I'm not out there sweating for three hours every day just to find out what it feels like to sweat. - Michael Jordan

I've missed more than 9000 shots in my career. I've lost almost 300 games. 26 times, I've been trusted to take the game winning shot and missed. I've failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is why I succeed. - Michael Jordan

Some people want it to happen, some wish it would happen, others make it happen. - Michael Jordan

I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not. - Kurt Cobain

I do not see why man should not be just as cruel as nature. - Adolf Hitler

Politics is war without bloodshed while war is politics with bloodshed. - Mao Zedong

A single death is a tragedy, are million deaths is a statistic. - Joseph Stalin

When we hang the capitalists they will sell us the rope we use. - Joseph Stalin

And the things that come to those that wait may be the things left by those that got there first. - Steven Tyler

Fake it until you make it. - Steven Tyler

Why pay a dollar for a bookmark? Why not use the dollar for a bookmark? - Steven Spielberg

I'd like to believe that the women who wear my clothes are not dressing for other people, that they're wearing what they like and what suits them. It's not a status thing. - Marc Jacobs

It just seemed too weird to me. I don't know, maybe they were smoking a joint in the car downstairs from their parents' apartment. I had to go that far to put together a scenario of how they could have possibly recognized me. - Marc Jacobs

For all you "ahlians" or teenage crack-whores who didn't know who's marc jacobs, you probably got your LV because everyone else's doing it. - KENRIC.

Ideas that shape me :

Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm. - Winston Churchill

Try not to become a man of success, but rather try to become a man of value. - Albert Einstein

I guess I've always lived the glamorous life of a star. It 's nothing new-I used to spend down to the last dime. - Freddie Mercury

I won't be a rock star. I will be a legend. - Freddie Mercury

Money may not buy happiness, but it can damn well give it! - Freddie Mercury

Who wants to live forever? - Freddie Mercury

Music doesn't lie. If there is something to be changed in this world, then it can only happen through music. - Jimi Hendrix

One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain. - Bob Marley

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity. - Henry Van Dyke

If you judge people, you have no time to love them. - Mother Teresa

Glory is fleeting, but obscurity is forever. - Napoleon Bonaparte

We would like to live as we once lived, but history will not permit it. - John F. Kennedy

A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality. - John Lennon

Guilt for being rich, and guilt thinking that perhaps love and peace isn't enough and you have to go and get shot or something. - John Lennon

If everyone demanded peace instead of another television set, then there'd be peace. - John Lennon

Time you enjoy wasting, was not wasted. - John Lennon

If slaughterhouses had glass walls, everyone would be a vegetarian. - Paul McCartney

In the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make - Paul McCartney

Before marriage, a girl has to make love to a man to hold him. After marriage, she has to hold him to make love to him. - Marilyn Monroe

KENRIC! 12:14 p.m. 10th July 2007.
* check back for more of these quotes :D

I dont like my life to be like a routine, repeated over and over everyday.

now life's like this.

but i like it the way it is and i enjoy my life all the same.

cos without these sucky moments,

there wouldn't be those kick-ass, rock n roll moments that we either await/pursue.

Something abt me :
what you percieve about me will probably be directly inverse to the actual me.

I might look satisfied on the outside, but i'm totally unsatisfied on the inside.
I might look unsatisfied on the inside, but i'm totally satisfied on the outside.

this can be applied to almost any aspect in my life. confusing? no?

KENRIC! 11:06p.m. 7th July 2008.

& i actually remember what happened exactly a year ago ! omg 7-7-07 !

Sounds Familiar?

I found the phone
I must've missed your message
You got it wrong, It wasn't what your friend said.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.
I should've let you in, but I let you down.
You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted
Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.
Tell by your tone, I've taken it too far again.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.
Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.
You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.
I don't know why i ever waited to say.
Cuz I'm just dying just to see you again .

My last mistake, putting my friends first.
I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.
You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.
Now I'm in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.
There's so much I haven't given yet.
If you could give another second chance.
Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

KENRIC! 7:52p.m. 2nd July 2008.

* familiar sibo?

Kenric wants to be smoke free.

KENRIC! 4:23p.m. 2nd July 2008

for once in a very long time, i finally felt liberated.
liberation from guilt.
i thought i had ruined the image of something so beautiful,
just because i was an asshole.

but now that it isn't already so.
i'm contended. i don't need forgiveness.

KENRIC! 1:39p.m. 2nd July 2008.

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay

cos You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely

for once in a very long time, i actually felt guilty.
thanks to you who actually made me feel,
or at least remind me of what it feels like.

KENRIC! 5:21a.m. 1st July 2008.