BUSY. BUSY. BUSY.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.

My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelery,
whichever you prefer.

Roll : 01

The Rebellion.

For once in so long, i've finally managed to have a fun night out with my friends.
ps : thanks edwin, meimei & co, i really enjoyed myself with you guys today.
(Happy Birthday to MOM, Kevin, Esther & Elaine; that is if you guys manage to see this space)

Went Rebel. (too bad aaron & many others missed it, wish you guys could be here with me too)
(especially you aaron, meet up soon!)
(ivan & weihong, take loads of care while in tekong! can't wait to see your clean shaved scalps in two weeks time :)

OKAY, NOW BACK TO NORMAL LIFE.
which includes : art, lasalle, sleepless nights, projects, assignments, forgetting to have my meals, endless spamming of cigs to stay awake, etc.
(all in all, its all good fun. i enjoy this lifestyle, apart from being "drained", tired and sleepless all the time)

Resolutions : stop missing classes. sleep early. finish my assignments on time (recently ive found myself less and less motivated to do my work; i procrastinate and get easily distracted, WHY?)

i really love school work honestly. even though it's quite taxing, but at the end of the day, the satisfaction i get from my end-product is just so encouraging. i need new motivations to keep me going on. URGENTLY.

WILL UPLOAD PHOTOS + SHOTS FROM FISHEYE & PHOTOGRAPHY CLASS SOON.
(its been sometime since i added some "real" photos)

MY BED ( special dedication; will sound kinda lame)
sorry for the past few months of neglecting you. in my heart you're still the best bed i'll ever have (thus far of course). from now on i will try to spend more time with you instead of you-know-what kinda bed (totally cacat and out of your league, thanks). and yes ! after this post im coming for you to give me that never-failing comfort that you had always given me.

SO BYE WORLD, HELLO BEDTIME.

I find it some-sort funny and freaky that women that happen to appear in my life, seems to have their names starting with the letter J.

eg, Mom : Julie.

PAY WAY !
:D

Time & Money
i used to say:
"wo you de shi shi jian(time), mei you de shi qian(money)"
now i'd say:
"wo you de shi qian(money), mei you de shi jian(time)"

The Beauty of Irony:
(keeps me amused and everlastingly amazed)

I'd Rather say : "I've Made It",
rather than saying : "I will do it", "I can do it", "I can make it" (someday/somehow you never will)

this is why i keep my mouth shut in situations like these and observe.
I am Watching.

ps : in the meantime "Fake it till you make it"
- Steven Tyler

Cos we were meant to live for so much more,
Have we lost ourselves?

Thanks for the entertainment.
(and giving me a very good excuse to exercise my well trained and honed use of grammar)

Seriously, there is more to life than just hate (and my hate-posts).
So please? if you're still following my blog (you stalker/persistent bitch/whore) please stop?

there is a reason to why i changed my link? hello? i've got better things to do you know? and which stupid idiot would stand by and just let you rant your stupid, baseless and non-evidence supported comments?

so please, move on, live your life. fuck off my thinking space, fuck off my point of view, and fuck off my "freedom-of-speech" space. you dont like what you see here, i kindly invite you to stop stalking (cos its not like i didn't try to change my blog address). spare yourself and myself all these un-necessary trouble?

i seriously understand that you have no future, which is why you're so free to do all these funny things. but hello? you don't want yours, doesn't mean that i don't want mine you know? mine is every bit worth fighting for, while yours? just another typical perfect example of "FAIL" and "FUTURE GONE".

wow a new slogan !

Usually in such situations I'd say "Suck My Balls", but sorry you already did.

Seriously the difference between a good rebuttal and a bad one is very clear.
A good one is well supported with many substantial evidences.
Sadly, a bad one doesn't have much of any solid evidences, and at most of the times, they're filled with emotions and more emotions. (which are quite meaningless against me)

If you had realized, your emotion filled rebuttals don't amaze me at all. you need to try harder.
In such situations I'd say : "Suck My Balls". But sorry, you already did. (Literally & out of so many people i told this to, you literally did)

ps : refer to Oct 12th's post if you haven't. cos that's my main argument. in my eyes, you're forever "CBLL" from that day on. think you have something about me that's worse than that? bring it on. Whore.

So well you think waiting's a bliss?
I simply think you're just plain pathetic.

You are such a Joke.
Seriously, i don't give a single damn about you,
cos you know why?

People like you, don't go far in life.
Got no ambition, got no future.

Not that i'm looking down on people, but then again, you look down on your own family background and you're ashamed of it anyways. You undermine basic human values and proved yourself to be a scum of the society. we don't need that. Don't try to teach me or tell me how things should go, you fucking juvenile, you're like what? 16? ffs you're not even 17 and you can go around as if its something you could be proud of. someday i really hope you'll look back and realize how much of a loser you are, though you might think you're at the top of the world now, you think you got what you want, you think. but then you'll realize its all worth nothing.

Why did i even downgrade myself for someone like you?
time to open your eyes baby, its a big world out there.

almost forgot about one of my all-time favorite slogans :
"Smirk and say FTW"
-Kenric

I am in Love w/ myself, art & (insert female name here).

And we cover our lies with handshakes and smiles
And we try to remember our alibis
We tell lies to our parents, who hide in their rooms
We bury our secrets in the garden
Of course we could never make this love last
I said of course we could never make this love last
The only love we know is love for ourselves
We bury our secrets in the garden

I know, my love, this is not the only story you can tell
This pain won't last forever, this pain won't last forever.

Everybody Needs
a Lil' Bit of Jesus Sometimes.

My fingers are full of cuts and blisters from handling the galvanized wire :(

BYE BYE CHEEBAI LENG LENG !!!
(1st ever such post on my blog; lowest i can stoop to, quite low i suppose?)

ps : no. 8+ in 10 months?
(this is seriously the final impression you left on my mind; hope you'll weep over this)

pss: no more emo posts.
(at least for now:)

*& shit you guys, dont ask me what this is about. im not gonna elaborate. bye bye.

You will Live to Regret This Decision.
Mark My Words.

Seriously Other Than Jesus (no.1 Best Friend), Lucky I had forseen this disaster and had my 2nd Best Friend on standby ($$$).

I'd Come For You
By now you know that
I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you

Comeback Time.
Old and New pursuits merge and harmonize;
back to label days & hello to artist/tattooist days.

ps : there were 5 digits at my "Account Balance" all along.
(5 digit : $xx,xxx.xx)

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart.

Would you be able to lie to yourself and deny the fact that you still care?

i miss Jesus.

In the first place,
do you still need me to care for you?

it seriously pisses me off when people steal my ideas.
especially when the person you are totally contradicts my ideas.

furthermore, its even worse when you had a history of backstabbing me based on that very idea itself. dont make yourself look like a joke.

And Baby if you wanted me to, why not say so
Let me go cause I cant shine bright enough for you

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me
You can take back your memories they're no good to me
And here's all your lies,
You can look me in the eyes
With that sad sad look that you wear so well....

So when you see my face now,
Hope it really gives you hell.

Catch me if you can
(and afford to), Bring it on.

ask yourself with conviction :
" do i have any real friends? "

Now we can all Fuck the 19th.

All "LANJIAO" one.

The more you love, the more you lose a part of you.
Yet you don't become less of you.
Instead, you end up being complete...

You've got my parking coupon already laaaaaaa!
Like we said, 3 months.
Like you said, you've given up that life.
19 of April?
Max plus combo.
"Never thought i'll fall in love love love. But now max max max."
All along i've given up, teach me,
how to love again.

The way you smile, makes me feel like i'm the most fortunate girl in the world.

BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR LPDR!!
BABY, I AM YOUR VERY OWN LPDR!!!!!!!

Me wanna go webcam with baby already.Let's have slumber party from Monday to Wednesday okay. We go buy the whole 7-11 and we'll have all the chips. Woooo. Goodnight all!

Hi baby, this post is specially for you. ^^
Remember to study hard and score well for your exams kay.
No worries, i will always support you. Promise.
Love you always.

Loverboy whipped spaghetti with mushroom, ham and melted cheese with bacon bits on the top for me last Friday. (;

My heart is in you.
Where you go, you carry me.
I bleed, if you bleed.
Your heart beats inside of me.
You're keeping me alive.

I'll hold you near.
Together, we'll never die.
Your love is keeping me alive.

it wasn't me who changed. all along I've been blaming myself for nothing. the problem wasn't even me to begin with.

Ivan : "PAI LOH TI !!!"

HAHAHAH ! you next to kena. ^^

Diamonds Aren't Forever,
Fame is.

and cos now your name's stained,
2nd best is all you will know; diamonds?

Reflect & Think.

People like you,
Do not go far in life.

I Provide Free Tuition.
Contact me if you're interested.
k3nric@hotmail.com

(for friends only)

Updated Importance Chart :
1. Money
2. Mom & Dad
3. Friends
4. Music
5. Cigs
6.Art
7. Food
8. Warcraft
9. Blogs and Facebook
10. You

your smell still lingers on my garmets, and as it used to sweetly serenade me, now it brings me deep deep misery. asking myself "baby, why arent you here with me?"

So what if the one whom they claims "don't look for him anymore, you've found him" isnt the one you're with now. is however the one you've found and is here waiting all along but you've forsaken?

What if?

A Heartbreaker Right From The Start

remember when I caught your eye?
you gave me rainbows and butterflies
we did enjoy our happiness ?
when our love was over
I was such a mess

I smiled at you
and you smiled back
that’s when I knew
there ain’t no turning back
you said you loved me
and I did too
now though it’s over
I still love you

you’re in my mind
you’re in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you’d break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

I tried to fight it
I tried so hard
and every day
I pray to god
that you and me were meant to be
but you had another
you had a lover
and now its gone
I don’t know why
I feel like crying
just want to die
I can’t look at you
and you know why
no I tried so hard
to catch your eye

you’re in my mind
you’re in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you’d break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

What seemed to be a perfect love story, just turned into a typical betrayal love story under the manipulation of your very own hands.

I Never Forget a Face,
but in your case I'll make an Exception.