2008 seems to be a year that passes real fast for me.

we're now half-way through this year now, and somehow it didn't feel as hard for time to pass by like it did on years before.

its been alot to go through for me, and i believe that there's still alot more. this year has been a busy year. i was busy with o'levels last year. i thought life would be much easier now that i've cleared that hurdle but i was wrong.

now i'm as busy coping with poly work; projects, assignments, web tutorials, tutorials, getting used to the environment etc. and at the same time not forgetting my close friends and my ex-school mates, and most importantly, my family. the pressure to perform is still on, as i cannot afford to fail any modules, neither can i afford to waste any time on unecessary activities. but frankly, i've not been doing a good job coping with all these.

lastly, i still remember clearly that around this time last year, i used to frequent the esplanade. but i slowly stopped going there as frequently as before. but as i went to the area with my family last saturday, i realised that the place had minor changes. that is the sg. flyer and which was also the purpose of my family's visit there, uh ok.

as night falls, and as i walked out of the sg flyer plaza, i heard sounds of fireworks. that was when something struck me. it was one of the main reasons why i frequent the area last year. that was to catch weekly fireworks ( though we were always late ) display for NDP rehearsals and previews. ( but eventually managed to catch it on the actual day ).

memories are memories, and i'd choose to put them behind me and continue my pursuit, my dreams of being "who i want to be when i grow up". time for focus, time to get serious. time for school. (knnbccb). bye bye.

KENRIC! 7:02a.m. 30th June 2008.

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If I should stay I would only be in your way
so I'll go .
but I know I'll think of you every step of the way
And I will always *** will always ****
You my darling you bitter sweet memories
That is all I am taking with me so

Good-bye
please don't cry we both know
I'm not what you you need

And I will always **** will always ****

I hope life treats you kind and
I hope you have all you dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness but above all of this
I wish you love and I will always ****.

i've finally realised and confirmed what i want to be when i grow up now, at the age of 17.

KENRIC! 4:22a.m. 30th June 2008.

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KENRIC! 2:18a.m. 26th June 2008.

- brought to you fresh @ 2am.

Time to lay claim to the evidence
Fingerprints sell me out
But our footprints washed away
From the docks downtown
It's been getting late for days
And I feel myself deserving of a little time off
We can kick it here for hours
And just mouth off about the world
And how we know it's going straight to hell

Pass me another bottle, honey
The Jaeger's so sweet
But if it keeps you around, then I'm down

Meet me on Thames Street
I'll take you out
Though I'm hardly worth your time
In the cold, you look so fierce
But I'm warming up
Because the tension's like a fire
We'll hit South Broadway in a matter of minutes
And like a bad movie, I'll drop a line
Fall in the grave I've been digging myself
But there's room for two
Six feet under the stars

I should have known better than to call you out
On a night like this, a night like this
If not for you, I know I'd tear this place to the ground
But I'm all right like this, all right like this
I'm gonna roll the dice
Before you sober up and get gone
I'm always in over my head

And like a bad movie, I'll drop a line
Fall in the grave I've been digging myself
But there's room for two
Six feet under the stars

I'm guilty, but I'm safe for one more day
Overdressed and underage
Do you really need see an ID?
This is embarrassing as hell
But I can cover for it so well
When we're six feet under the stars

All Time Low - 6 feet under the Stars.

2nd instance of being bored today.
1st instance of feeling tired today.
-2:00p.m.

1st instance of being bored today.
- 12:08p.m.

yhea lo, schl's startng tmr.

So deep, that it didn't even bleed and catch me
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
Asleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me,

I need something else
Would someone please just give me
Hit me, knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can't laugh, all I want, inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me,

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

I guess, I remember every glance you shot me
Unharmed, I'm losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me

I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got

My blood bleeds red
For all those thoughts you left unsaid
Well how could you let your guard down
And let me impose
We’re dying the further this thing goes
Well can we go back to where we were before
You dropped your heart on my floor
‘Cause it was easiest to hide it all away
And never say what we were thinking
No you’d never catch me blinking that night
‘Cause I was all of yours

But don’t say we became too late
Well I just think you’re humoring yourself
Let me say one more thing before you fly
And this charade is out of sight
I’ve been wrong but now I’m right
So let your precious sky come down on you tonight

I’m right outside
With every useless key I’ve tried
You’re seamlessly wrapped in secrets
Unraveling now
But you don’t know just why or how

Let me say one more thing before these
Beautiful mistakes we’ve made run dry
Well I thought this would all blow by
And everything would just turn out alright
And this would all be fine
So say goodbye to days like these

I’ll give it one more try and hope it all seems better in your eyes
Well maybe not this time.

a fat ass who looks like his pants were gonna burst anytime?
with a typical (insert suitable adjective) tuck at the belt buckle?
how sweet. totally damn sweet (:
& god-damn laugh-able.

good for you.
HA-HA!

life's been good to me
....like it always has.

Image Flashback.

ever wondered how i look like in approximately one year ago?

i bet many of you are quite keen to know how i looked like (esp. the hair).

today's your lucky day.

here goes.......

i couldn't believe it myself either :)

from left : Kangyi , Ric. ( in '07)

For recent image : check back the 25th May post.

alternatively, you can see me in real-life if you know me.

ps : frankly, i'm already starting to regret doing this.

When she got up she said I’ll see you in the morning
I didn’t know my heart would break without a warning
But when you fall in love with madness,
You’re sure to go insane.

She loved walking through the rain
She loved the things we can’t explain
She used to love to laugh for hours
Loved to speak my name
She loved.

I’m only holding on to dust to find a reason
I’m only marking time, the changing of the seasons
Maybe someday when I’ll surrender
I’ll feel it all again.

And I must believe
There was something there in me
She loved.
She loved...

Now do I love walking through the rain ?
do I love the things I can’t explain ?
And now do I love to laugh for hours ?
do I love to scream her name ?

KENRIC! 1:58a.m. 3rd June 2008.

* Mig Ayesa - She Loved