Snow Patrol - Signal Fire
( Spiderman 3 OST )

these kids are sooo absolutely adorable !
enjoy the video ! : D






KENRIC!
9:08p.m. 29th May 2007 .

Choices.

i had a choice : to obey or not to obey.
- i chose not to. i disobeyed.

i had a choice : to bow and humble myself or not to.
- i chose not to. i rose in pride.

i had a choice : to hang on and await salvation.
- i chose not to. i let go.

i had a choice : to follow you and not to follow you.
- i chose not to. i denied you.

i had a choice to praise you or not to.
- i chose not to. i shamed you.

i had a choice to fellowship or not to.
- i chose not to. i went my ways.

* though in the very end i know you'll triumph. though in the very end your children will still have the last laugh, even if they die, they'll die in joy & glory for your name. for each choice we make, causes an effect. this effect follows an eternity. the fact that brings them joy, because they chose to follow you.

for what we do in life, echoes an eternity.

i very well know the effect of my choices. what options do i have?
ever since i chose to 1) disobey , 2) rise in pride , all my options became self-centered.
i wouldn't give a thought on what you would have felt. logically, i wouldn't have made a choice, pleasing to you.

but then again. what could i ever do to take back my choices?
im smart, you know it too, you made me smart. but, this is the only mystery that i still couldn't uncover. i may eventually discover the key, i might not & might even die trying. one thing's for sure, i never regretted ever placing my trust in you.

i didn't stray away. i just made wrong choices. perhaps the very first step is to admit this mistake? well, i don't know. we'll find out in time to come.

KENRIC! 12:28a.m. 25th May 2007.
* my mouth speaks of your disgrace, but my heart sings of your glory.

LASTLY.
im into the last 18 days of my probation !! :D
i don't know thats good or not, but do i know what i want
: better days ahead.

Grace Like Rain.

Amazing grace, how sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now I'm found
Was blind but now I see so clearly

Hallelujah, grace like rain falls down on me
Hallelujah, all my stains are washed away, washed away

'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

When we've been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun
We've no less days to sing Your praise
Than when we first begun

Song By : Todd Agnew

KENRIC! 3:00p.m. 23rd May 2007 .
* each word, each letter, brings a memory back.
once lost, now found. step by step.

Updates ...

School...
-recently, i've just completed my mid-year exams.
-O'level mother tongue (chinese) is coming up next! its next monday 28th May.
-full-day timetables of Chinese Language for this week.
-meet the parents session : 30th May
-my results aren't very ideal for mid-year, except for those few subjects that never disppoint me.

Health...
-still having blocked noses frequently.
-situation's under control.
-under medication : Loratadine pills/12hr, 2Cetirizine/12hr and two sprays of mometasone fuorate in each nose before sleep daily.
-still im very thankful for the Nasal sprays.

Life...
-probation's ending in 23 days.
-school holidays starting 26th May.
-Prelims in 3-4 months time.
-O'levels in 5 months time.
-Birthday's approx 9 months time (ok, this was random)

Others...
-still, i miss The Father.
-3 top places i go to : home, school, town. (ok, this was random too)
-everything's going fine at home, me and my folks are getting along well.
-the sams and dogs are out of the company, what else can i say? :)
-im still as crappy as ever, Beware : words that hurt. ( literally )
-blah.blah.blah
(felt that i have much to say here, but then i cant recall them now...
i shall post again if i'd ever recall)

KENRIC! 10:37p.m. 20th May 2007 .
*the past is back, but better. now.

17 MONTHS DOWN.
1 MONTH TO GO.
JUST 31 DAYS.

KENRIC! 1:32p.m . 12 May 2007.
* when the broken wings of an angel recover,
they'll return with wings stronger, than ever.

33 DAYS TO GO.

KENRIC! 12.01 a.m. 10 May 2007.
* what more can i ask for?
with physical freedom, im left with spiritual freedom to claim.

WHAM !

you people might wonder ( for those who are not, shut up ) :
" how is kenric doing now ? "

i'd say, life has never been better.
but still i know it could get better :)

HEY ! you motherfcuking peep-squeaks. just because i dont want to start a quarrel doesn't mean that you can let your whore crack words flow, flow, flow.
you think your words affect me? you think your words will bring me down?
well think again.

like what daddy kenric always says : " when you're just not better, you gotta try harder. "

you can say, " well im not perfect, but my whoever mama's daddy's little kiddo is, and he died for you ! " u think i'd care? i know he is and i respect that.

just because people ask : " hey ! why you're always so happy, leading a good life? "
and you get high over it. for fcuk? admit it. you're not leading a happy life. you've got soo many dissatisfactions that i could list them all down.

Just want to say in conclusion : " people disappoint you, don't abandon Christ or whatever you believe in just because of those losers that spoil the Holy image of your belief. peace out ! "

KENRIC! 11:44p.m. 6 May 2007.
* & just because you're older doesn't eman you're better.
cos when you're just not better, you gotta try harder.

40 days later.
towards these next forty days, it'll spell a new begining of my life.
and to commemorate these remaining days, i'll list 40 things about me that you may know, or may not know.

1. ive been home daily by 9pm for 16months & 20days.
2. i spent the first 3 months of my new life on maplestory to kill time.
3. i got caught once by HSA for smoking.
4. i went to party a few times just for the thrill of it.
5. i went to europe for a 10 days tour
6. the countries include germany, austria and czech republic.
7. ever since, i fell in love with europe and i promise i'll go back someday.
8. i fell in love with Christ and i know i don't ever want to fall back ever.
9. i dedicated my December 2006 holidays to Christ.
10. i went beautiful thailand for mission trip.
11. for once in my life, i saw the most beautiful night scenery in thailand.
12. my passion ignited over YI camp. it felt "turbo-charged".
13. i broke time restriction on 17 March.
14. i broke time restriction on 5th April.
15. i learnt how to speak simple Thai language.
16. i broke somebody's trust and im sorry about it.
17. i didn't trust God enough.
18. i was proud and it caused my fall.
19. i had many many many first times.
20. i went overseas again : Perak for 4 days.
21. i stopped playing basketball.
22. i gave up the dream i had since i was 7. basketball.
23. because of this setback.
24. i tried to go back again but i blew my chance.
25. went back to material life.
26. i tried, i tried and im still trying to stand up again.
27. i want to party like mad when this ends.
28. i fell in love with black and gold.
29. i want to do well for my olevels.
30. i dropped A-maths.
31. when i finish olevels, i want to work and earn lots of money so i can spree.
32. i intended to get a tattoo, but Christ held me back.
33. i quit smoking because of Christ.
34. i found real friends.
35. i discovered everlasting real love. God.
36. i became somebody im not and denied my Lord. im sorry. forgive me.
37. i deserve damnation because i caused my brothers to fall.
38. i know i cant do much anymore. but i want to relight my faith.
39. i still don't know what i want to study after secondary school.
40. there are many things i want to say but i dont know how.

* if i ever got another life. i know i didn't earn it.
you paid for it. so let me love you once more, just once more please.

KENRIC! 9:57p.m. 3 May 2007.

Disclaimer.

to fellow "mates".

HELLO? whats the difference between wearing a miniskirt/shortpants WITH leggies/stockings over your hairy/hairless legs

&

wearing a miniskirt/shortpants WITHOUT leggies/stockings over your hairy/hairless legs
???

I SAY :
the difference is that your leg looks coloured with the leggies. and people wouldn't be able to differenciate between your hairy/hairless legs.

I ASK :
does having leggies/stockings on you make you look decent-er?

I CONCLUDE :
my stand is that whatever it is. it should not be an excuse to wear revealing shorts/skirts/whtv.

* you wanna comment on other who wears the same. and the only difference i see is the tight fitted pieces of fibres on your legs with different colours.

they look toxic. you sound toxic. :)
i'm evil i know.
i love myself still.

SO WHATEVER !
you think i care? you think i give a damn?
don't argue with me. i don't entertain whine-er babies.

KENRIC! 12:09a.m. 2nd May 2007 .