To : A Special Somebody

19th April 2009 was the start of an experience I'll never ever forget. 30th August 2009 is the day that this experience ended. I would say it all started out Beautifully and it ended with mixed feelings and emotions.

Thank you for all the good memories and life lessons you taught me, they are the most valuable possessions i own now. i will keep them safe in my heart till the day that i die. I am not afraid of admitting to my mistakes. I took you for granted. My attitude towards you changed and i didn't respect your freedom and privacy. Silly me even went to the extent to becoming a "stalker". I went up to your house and secretly looked at you from your window. I know you people out there will laugh at me, but I'm not afraid of letting the whole world know. For it was what i believed would help the situation, but it only made things worse. I only have myself to blame for being unable to control myself but i couldn't take it that things were left hanging. Maybe things would have turned out differently if i had the patience, but maybe not, for the chances you gave me were beyond what you could give.

I don't expect to be able to turn back the time for i have always lived on the principle to never regret. Yes, I do feel it, but would this self pity and dwelling help anything. Perhaps its time to move on.

I've tarnished my entire impression in your eyes and I am nothing less than a "fucking asshole", "sicko pervert". It is all too late for me to do anything anymore. I wish that I've made a positive impact in your life. But, I know that in reality, the picture I've painted wasn't all that perfect. With you I've learnt that Giving up part of myself, doesn't make me less of a person, in fact it made me more "complete" as a person. Maybe someday we'll know what exactly went wrong, but for now i only have my own selfish actions to blame.

I know in the game of Love, nobody is right nor wrong. Maybe the way i expressed my love for you wasn't correct and was somehow lost in translation from my feelings to actions. All I can do now is stand up from the fall and look forward to other things life has to offer.

From here, i wish you all the best. I wish you happiness. And most importantly I hope that you will make right choices from now on. There is so much on my mind now that i simply cannot put them all into words. But i hope that deep down inside, you already understand this realization I've come to. Friends?

Thanks For The Memories.