Life in a different dimension....

God...
how long has it been since i spoke to you?
how many times has it occured that i denied you?
how was it the way i treated the likes of myself then?

what led me astray?
what made me blind?

2nd attempt...
is it worth?
i gave away salvation,
but,
in times of desperation,
its you whom i sought.
taking freedom for granted.

NOW.

your people flee from me like a plague,
it fuels my hate for you.
i persecute ones whom my heart reached.
friends made thru you,
not so friendly afterall, how have you taught them?
perhaps i was like them then.

for whom do i need to please,
now that your children seem righteous,
but speak of evil like me.
gave me no motivation,
shows me no difference from then and now.

when your loved ones dont practice what they preach,
what for do you call them to reach?
so superficial. so artificial.

now i see,
even the identity dont matter much more anymore,
cause clearly they are righteous,
just because you are.
and, because they "obey" you.

you know i love you.
you know i trust too.
but then,
looking at all the diffences from then and now,
i clearly know what the difference is between,
your children that are true and un-true.

got so much to say, but few words to describe.
however i'd end here.
this isn't goodbye.
this is just the begining of my observance.

for how can i love them and you like you wanted,
when your children love like they wanted....
how can i learn,
when other than you,
the teachers are incapable to teach?
i might be wrong, but their methods.....

you know what i mean.

kenric !
10:57 p.m.
12th November 2007.

don't say i never did my part,
when you only cared about your other responsibilities.
how would you know i wasn't right,
when you dont even give a damn to even ask.
don't blame me, you're not God.
well. start thinking of ways how you could blame yourself.

:D